At school I can think
I can think about anything
Depression doesn't run through my mind
I long think about what I need
For eight hours
I can pretend
Pretend I'm ok
Pretend like I don't hurt
Because I'm too busy
Too busy doing work
Too busy learning
For those eight hours I can pretend
Pretend like nothing ever happened
Though sometimes I don't want to go
It helps me get a release
I am learning to not focus on you
And you know who I mean
I can think clearly
It's with this clarity that I found a guy
Though he does not know
I can't tell
I don't want to be with him
But at the same time i do
He is still a crush
I haven't told him yet
I want him to know me for who I am
Not for who I want to be
So he is the main reason
Reason I want to go
Go to school
School in the morning.
