indefinitely back?

Author's Note

hello y'all😭

I don't think any of you would remember me, but I'd still put this out here for the sake of clearing up the situation that my stupid ass did a few years back🙃

It's been a long time, huh? I don't think this'll notify anyone anymore considering I went all about discontinuing everything brashly without much of an explanation like I'm running away. And practically went MIA wtf...

I owe a lot of you an explanation lwk LMAO, it's been such a while and I'm deeply sorry for being the idiot kid I was. I wrote these books since I was like, what, 11? 12? And I was ridden with unexplained fear of not being able to post enough within a certain timeframe. Stupid right? I know bro, it was BADDDD.

To put it simply, I was a scaredy-cat that placed a heck of an expectation on my own shoulders when no one did.😶 I was a fool and amateur at best. I won't be revising any of the books or will ever come back to it. Maybe later into the future, but it's still too early to say much.

I know that many of you have stuck around since my first book that I've unpublished because I absolutely hated how it turned out and made a sad excuse of saying that I lost interest in writing within that fandom- I have not, I just didn't know how to write even decently and how to make a proper background.

I made a lot of regrets, but writing wouldn't ever be one of them, neither would it also be having supporters or followers even. 😅

I've grown a lot since then, and I'm actually cringing so bad at how I faced my issues and constantly put pressure on myself for absolutely no reason. Running away, without a good explanation and throwing all of... Whatever the younger me did right out the bat with little plausible reason. 🤥

I've been a bit more stable since then, I'm not sure if I'll ever continue writing on this account. But I am writing something...
on a different account though HAHAHAHAA

I couldn't remember the password to this account until I did now 😓 HELP

I do have a lot of drafted stories though, my mind was working wonders with whatever I had in store. But I'm sure that there are other stories that have already been posted with the same idea as I did.

I love writing, and that has not waned over the years.

Yet, ever since I posted books here, my writing has kind of dwindled into nearly nothing and found myself burnt out because of how I kept overthinking for all of the wrong reasons. I kept comparing myself to authors that keep posting and posting while I can't even think of a way to post a chapter with a writer's spark.

I had the ideas, that motivation, and no one really said much about it. But I used it carelessly, I admit wholeheartedly.

My dumb ahh kept degrading itself until I was scared of disappointing the people that supported my books, the ones that read it and apparently loved it. I eventually went through a weird patch and practically went off with an attitude to some of my readers like I've got my life on the line... I was NOT chill at all and it's like, pathetic and moronic at the same time just as i remembered.

I didn't have a problem at all with any of you asking and all because I did not write any better and specify or address some things clearly I was blindly sensitive and it's downright HORRENDOUS holy crap💀

I'm considering writing a few things here or whatnot, but I can't guarantee you that it'll be within a timeframe. It'll be sporadic, nor can I let all of you have the false hope that I will post a book here. I'm not sure yet. But as of now, I'm not thinking of posting for now.

Ughhhh I'm so sorry, deeply, wholly, sorry. I was more of a wussy idiot child and didn't think shyt through, gang😓

That was all on me mb gang

If some of you read through all of this, genuine applause to you. Because rarely would I actually read through things like this... Guilty as charged😣

Shyt aside, if y'all did read through all of this. Thank you, and bless all of you‼️ (I don't pray, but I wish y'all well anyway)

I'm actually shaking my head oh my god I wasted SOOOO much potential on the books I've published AND unpublished... jfc someone slap my younger self for me PLEASE

I'm also active on Sky: Children of the Light. One of my coping mechanisms Ong🙌  goated

SCRATCH THAT I FOUND MY FIRST BOOK AND I WROTE IT AT TEN... IT'S SO CRAPPY I'M GONNA CRY😭😭