I hope you know all I a needed was a hug, do you even understand what a hug is? Maybe if I explain it to you you won't feel the need to distance yourself away me telling yourself that I just needed space when both of us know that just wasn't the case. you didn't wanna deal with my emotions, didn't wanna give me devotion didn't want to make a commotion, making ME believe our feelings ran deeper than the ocean, I should've known you never cared... about my safety, my welfare. When was I ever being seen? you never saw me for me you saw potential into making ME into who you wanted me to be. I hope you know that you hurt me... and you still continue to, every second I think about you I realize you weren't true not your words, not your passion, not the way that you were acting, not your affection not your empathy, the way you didn't check in regularly, not your gestures, not your listening, the way you made me feel was sickening. But the last thing I realized that gave that last shove was how fake I realized what came of your love. I forgot how I started this poem... it was about hugs, I said I'd explain it to you, hoping you wouldn't sweep everything under the rug, I wanted to tell you so that you'd know how to help me because ironically it seemed to be your excuse for everything, you'd say "I don't understand you what do you want me to say or do?" You don't think that I know I have a loose screw or two? You just sat there and watched me while I was falling apart, picking at pieces and breaking my heart. I know you knew how to help me you just didn't want to you thought that I'd stand there and let you do what you wanted to? No, I thought about leaving I thought about leaving you several times but just thinking about hurting you made me want to DIE! but guess that wasn't the same for you because in the end you did that text left me broken while you just hid behind that phone screen hoping I wouldn't reply so you wouldn't have to deal with me I really don't know why... I know how you felt because I loved you and paid attention while you didn't even do the bare minimum and give me protection. I was hurting throughout our relationship, but you just egged it on I wish I knew before talking to you you'd be the devil's spawn. you pulled on my heart strings you kept giving them tugs but all I ever wanted, all I ever NEEDED was a hug...
