Oddity

More Questions Than Answers

{Your POV}
[{ I'VE BEEN SUPER BUSY BECASE SCHOOL AND I AM JUST GETTING BUSIER BECAUSE I GOT THE LEAD IN MY SCHOOL PLAY AND I AM ON THE SPEECH AND DEBATE TEAM! I AGAIN APOLOGIZE FOR ANY DISCONVENIENCES!(fuck spelling)}]
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All I could think about was what Danni explained. He had seemed so glad to point out that I was going to bring about the total annihilation of the planet and any species or anything on it. Almost too gleefully... That guy is just too sketchy and it's killing me. He's probably listening to me right now like the ass he is.
It was like he wants me to destroy the Earth and its inhabitants. Which is odd... Isn't it? He's supposed to be the good guy, yet he acts like humans and animals don't matter a single bit. Just what is up with this fae?
Tons of questions still swirled around my head, none of them seeming to have any clear or unclear answers. They were just there, like the rhetorical questions you ask someone. They seemed impossible to solve. I could almost compare them to Trigonometry questions, but those at least have an answer.
I ran a quick hand through my hair in frustration. This was all making me so angry at everything! I'm not even on my period and I am so utterly pissed at even the tiniest blade of grass right now. I know that sounds totally sexist to my own sex, but we are all 100% sure we get really super pissy(like more than usual) while we are bleeding from the crotch. Not to mention that our uterus, whenever we haven't had the sex required to make a child, decides that it has dishonored it's family and stabs itself multiple times, causing cramps that fucking hurt. As a result of this chain reaction, I get in a bad fucking mood.
I don't believe that I could be any more livid with the situation than I am at the moment. Is it too much to ask for to go back to school on that horrendous island with Isana and live happily ever after? Wait... Did I just think about Isana and I living happily ever after?! What the hell is wrong with me?
I usually hold everyone at arms length, so why do I feel an attraction towered Yashiro Isana? It's almost as if I can't survive if I keep him out of my life. It scares me. It terrifies me to think somebody has gotten to me that much.
How innocent he is, how his silvery white hair falls across his forehead. How his eyes gleam in the midday sun. All of these things make my heart soar. I don't want it to soar. I want my heart to stay firmly planted in my chest like the Earth's core. Immovable. Dormant. Isolated inside the planet.
Why does there have to be so many unanswered questions? These questions boggle me to no end and it just needs to stop. It needs to leave me alone.
"Y/N?" I heard his voice ask. Speak of the devil and they shall appear. I looked over at him and ended up with a small smile on my face. "Oh, so you're okay. I was worried about you when Danni took you."
My eyes widened at the remark and I let my hair fall in my face, I couldn't let him see the red dusting my cheeks against my will. My heart fluttered. He worried about me! He really cared! Or did he? Did he really care or was he just trying to be on the Eternal Queen's good side? Did he really worry about me? Was what he was saying true?

{Time Skip brought to you by Allen Walker and his humongous appetite}

I lied in my dorm room bed and stared at the ceiling. The light was off, but I could still make out the little dents. I just thought. Thought about all the things that happened today.

I just wish I had more answers than questions...