Learning to be a Female

I'm I'm I'm..... Part 8

"Edward I feel okay now." "Are you 100% sure of that?" "Like dead sure that I am not sick. But before we go to the doctor's to make sure. I want to test a theory out." I said. "What kind of theory Jocelyn?" He ask. "If I'm pregnant or not." "How could you be pregnant?" "Edward, please tell me you know of the birds and the bees." "I was joking with you for once, but I do know about the birds and the bees. But why do they call it that anyway." "You have better luck asking the person who made up that term." I said. "So you want to go to the store than?" "How about you and get some of those pregnancy test stick things, and I stay on the bed so you don't have to worry too much of course. As long as you get me my book of course so I can read it." "Of course honey, but you promise to stay on the bed until I get back?" "How long are you going to be Edward? And please don't take the whole day either, or I'm going to kill you after I chew you out for leaving me alone that long again for something that simple." I said. "I'm sure I will only be gone two hours at most, since I can get lost in the store sometimes, more so when I can't find whatever I am trying to find." "Edward, if you can't find one yourself, please ask someone for help Edward instead of wandering around the store like a idiot like the last time." "I promise Jocelyn, and I love you. And I'll get you a glass of water too, and something to eat as well." "I love you too, and when it comes to food. Get the doughnut box." "You aren't eating all of those doughnuts Jocelyn." He said. "There is only like 3 left really." "Dang Jocelyn." "Sorry, but they called my name and everything. How couldn't I eat them?" "You murder honey." I couldn't help but giggle a little bit and we kiss and after that he got my book and a glass of water and the box and than left. I was somewhat bored after eating a doughnut and reading a little bit and drinking some of the water. I just was restless at the moment, but I did promise to stay on the bed. So I can't walk around to get it out of my system really. Which annoyed me to a great amount. So I pretty much just got the teddy bear off the floor near the bed and hug it and also curl up into somewhat a ball with it. It somewhat help to some amount with my mind and how restless it feels and other details. But it seem to be years before Edward came back. Even through it was only three hours, guess he got lost again and got scared to ask someone for help. "Sorry I toke so long. And are you okay?" "Yeah, just somewhat restless and everything right now." "I'm sorry..." He said. "Edward, it's okay. But you do have what we need right?" "Maybe got 2 dozen, more for the future really." "They came in a dozen didn't they." "And you would be right Joce." "That's okay, we might need them in the future anyway. But give me a package so I can read the crap and everything before, well you know." "Here you go Jocelyn." He said after he pulled a package out of the bag and hold it out for me. And of course I read all of the back before going into the bathroom and other boring and not needed to tell details at all. "So Jocelyn, what does the thing say?" "Give it a second Edward. Geez, barely did it anyway." "Sorry, I just really want to know." "I do too Edward. " And we kiss again and pretty much sat down on his lap while we waited. "Honey?" "Yeah?" "What does two lines mean?" He ask. "Wait what? Give me it." And of course he gave it to me, so I could understand what he was saying. "Well, if I read the back right and if I am smart enough and everything. It seems to say I'm pregnant, or have that one thing in my bladder or something along those lines." I said. "So, how about we go to the doctor's now to see if this is true." "You really don't believe a pregnancy test stick do you." "Why should I trust this thing anyway." "Fine Edward, I'll go." I said annoyed. And of course I change into the one dress we have. Which does bring out the green of my eyes, or so Edward says when he sees the green dress and my eyes. And of course after changing we went to the doctor's for Edward's sake as to say. "She is pregnant, but why didn't you trust the test for?" "Because why should he trust a stick that you pee on to see if you are pregnant or not. And also for males if you want to see if you have a certain kind of cancer." "Jocelyn...." "Edward, it's stinking fine gawd. But you are so doing most of the work for the baby room now because of it." And the doctor laugh to some amount. "Seems like you caught your wife on a bad day as to say." "More like me on a bad day." He poorly muttered to himself. "We heard you Edward. But it's okay honey. And be happy you aren't the one who is pregnant and going to have to push a baby out from between the legs in a couple of months of course." "You should count your blessings, more so with a wife like yours." The doctor said. Edward, he pretty much said nothing. And me and the doctor talk about a few more things before leaving. Edward didn't say anything at all, even when we got home. "Edward? What's wrong?" "Nothing Jocelyn." "Edward, just tell me okay?" I ask him. "I'm just somewhat scared okay?" "Scared of what Edward?" "What if I'm a crappy parent, and how would my parents and the rest of the family treat our kids." "Edward, I'm sure, dead sure you will be a wonderful dad. And if your family doesn't treat my kids nicely enough. They will have to deal with momzilla." "Momzilla?" He ask. "Me honey. Because I'm more likely going to rip someone's throat out if they aren't nice to my kids at all for no good reason." "The last things the kids and me need. You going to jail and having babies there." "If I can help it, nobody isn't going to be finding any bodies, not even me." "Oh Jocelyn, just stop joking around about killing." "I'm sorry Edward....." I said, and before just going to my bedroom and sitting down on the bed and be depressed. "Jocelyn?" "What Edward." I didn't bother to look up, just to ashamed of myself. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." "You didn't..." "Than look me in the eye and tell me that." "I can't. Stiff. I'm too dang ashamed of myself." I just couldn't help but tear up. But Edward pretty much came over and pick me up and hold me and kiss my forehead and cheeks and lips every now and than. But mainly he just held me while sitting on the bed and rocking me to some amount also. I pretty much just turn into a baby while he held me. And also fell asleep in his arms as well. After he saw and heard that I was asleep he put me under the covers and tuck me in and kiss my cheek.