Dangerous Paths

Too Fragile To Hold

Emily kissed her back showering her lips with soft kisses as her hugged her close, Sasha relaxed against her. "Shit I have to walk today don't I" she said with a pout. Emily laughed nodding "Yes we do, but I do believe you just figured out a new way to get my attention" she told the woman. "Oh?" The brunette asked "You're adorable when you pout" Emily told her before kissing her head.  "Am I now?" The brunette asked as she searched her fiancé's face for any tell that she was lying. "Yes you are" Emily told her truthfully Sasha smiled before getting up "Let's get ready for a walk" she told her. "Alright I'll walk the dogs if you want so you can hold onto me" Emily told her as she stood. "That's probably a good idea" the brunette agreed, the two women made their way to the to the bedroom. Emily found some comfortable clothing and laid it on the bed before getting her fiancé a clean loose fitting t-shirt, hoodie and joggers. Sasha slowly changed her clothing as Emily changed her own, Emily then helped the woman with her shoes so she could be more comfortable. Her chest still hurt if she tried to bend so Emily is doing all of the bending for her.

Emily slipped her own jogging shoes on before tying the laces once she stood up she gathered their clothes to toss them in the washer. Sasha smiled as she made her way out of the room and into the living room. Emily followed her before stopping by the washer tossing the clothes in and turning it on. Once she was done starting the washer she met her fiancé in the living room, she hood the leashes to the dogs collars. "Ready?" Sasha asked as she watched the woman with her two beloved canines. "Yes we are" Emily smiled as she scratched behind Chaos's ears, Emily looked at the dogs as her's as well at this point. Sasha stood up and followed Emily to the door stepping out as Emily set the alarm. Emily had both dogs leashes in one hand as Sasha held onto her other hand and onto her arm. The women made their way down to the main floor and out the building the walked down to a coffee shop that was the right distance for todays walk. "Hey Em" Sasha said, "Yes my love?" The raven haired woman responded. "Do you think we could order pizza for lunch?" The brunette asked Emily smiled "Of course we can. Hell we have Chinese left over if you want both for lunch" she replied. "Oh hell ya haha Well mine is more of a snack left over" the brunette laughed. Emily laughed as well "Yeah mine is too haha so lets heat that up for a snack til the pizza gets here" Emily suggested. "Sounds great to me" the brunette said as the women turned around to head back, she was already getting tired from the short walk.

"Easy lets sit and rest for a few sweetheart" Emily told her as she helped her sit on a bench. The brunette sat down slightly upset that she's tired already. The older woman sat down with her rubbing her back "It's normal to get tired easily you had multiple surgeries sweetheart" she tells her. "I know it just makes me feel weak Em. I'm an FBI agent for crying out loud and I can't walk to a coffee shop with out getting winded?" The brunette replies sounded defeated. "Oh honey" Emily replies as she holds her close "You're not weak you're the strongest person I know aside from myself" she tells her. The brunette looks up at her "Thank you baby" she finally says, the raven haired woman smiled. "Let me know when you want to head home" Emily replied as she held her close, "I think I'm good to walk home" Sasha replied after a few minutes. "Ok my love let's go" Emily said with a smile as she helped her fiancé up. The women walked back to the apartment stopping to let the dogs do their business first. After cleaning it up and tossing it in the garbage they made their way in the building before getting on the elevator. Once they exited the elevator they made their way into the apartment Emily turned the dogs loose as Sasha kicked her shoes off. Emily smiled as she set them by the door before taking her own off, Sasha made her way to the couch before sitting down.

"I'll heat our snack up then order pizza ok?" Emily asked as she made her way to the kitchen, "Yeah sounds good" Sasha replied as she leaned back on the couch. The raven haired woman was worrying a bit more about the younger woman since she seemed a bit more depressed after the walk. "Hey Em I'll be right back I'm going to go wash up" Sasha said as she got up and started heading toward the bedroom. "Ok sweetheart" Emily said in a concerned tone watching her disappear into the other room. Once in the bedroom the brunette made her way to the bathroom flicking the light on before shutting the bathroom door. She locked it then turned to the sink starting the water she stared at herself in the bathroom mirror as flash backs started flooding her brain. She tried to shake the bad memories but it wasn't working she felt tears falling down her face as she started to breath heavily. Before she realized what she was doing she grabbed her pocket knife and flipped it open she pressed it against the skin on her arm before dragging it. She flicked her eyes down and watched as blood droplets formed over the cut on her arm before rolling down meeting the water from the tap. She continued cutting her arm with the knife until the memories stopped. Once they stopped she cleaned her knife placing it back where she had left it then cleaning her arm well. Emily heard her muffled cries and made her way to the bathroom knocking on the door "Love what's wrong?" She asked as she tried to open the door.