Dangerous Paths

Too Fragile To Hold

The women slept late into the morning as they slept Sasha started to have a nightmare from being held captive. The young agent's breathing became rapid as she started to shake and try to escape. As this happened Emily started to stir from her sleep "Hey hey sweetheart it's ok" she told her as she rubbed her arm trying to wake her. The brunette didn't wake up right away as she kept fighting in her sleep when suddenly she lunged forward jumping awake. She had heard the gun shots in her dream causing her to jolt awake, her breathing was rapid as she started to cry. Emily quickly pulled her close into a hug before stroking her hair "Shhhh it's ok it was just a bad dream love" she told her with a comforting tone. Deep down the older woman knew it was more then just a dream but she didn't want to scare her fiancé further. "I'm sorry" the brunette cried as she held on to Emily tightly, "Hey you did nothing wrong you don't need to apologize we will get through this" Emily told her. The raven haired woman pressed soft kisses to the brunette's head trying to comfort her. As Sasha came down from the panic the nightmare through her into she laid her head against her fiancé's shoulder thinking. "How about some coffee, breakfast and then your meds. After that we can talk about the wedding yeah?" Emily suggested, the brunette nodded as she slowly got out of bed she was hurting from the reaction she had to the dream. Emily got out of bed as well helping her to the kitchen she made coffee and got started with breakfast. Sasha relaxed on the couch petting the dogs as Chaos jumped on the couch to comfort her, Emily kept an eye on her as she plated their breakfast.

"Breakfast is ready my love" she called to her fiancé, the brunette smiled before making her way to the table. "This looks great baby" she told her as she took a seat at the table, Emily smiled as she took a seat as well "Only the best for you" she told her. Sasha took a spit of her coffee "Decaf mixed?" She questioned noticing it was not nearly as strong as normal. "Yeah you're supped too not be drinking caffeine but I can't go with out coffee so I mixed the two" Emily confessed. The brunette smiled "Fair enough at least it tastes like coffee" she told her as she took a couple more drinks from the mug. Emily drank some of her own coffee before taking a bite of French toast. Sasha took a bite of her own French toast humming happily as the flavors danced crossed her tongue. The older woman was happy to see her eating willingly given she hadn't been eating to much with the stress of their last case. The brunette ate her eggs as she relaxed into the chair "Thank you for remembering the portion sizes I'm trying not to be as restrictive I know it worries you" she confessed. "It's ok I understand it you have an eating disorder honey. I'm not going to force you to eat more then you're comfortable with while stressed out" Emily told her. The brunette smiled and nodded as she finished her breakfast "But this was insanely good I think you underestimate your French toast skills" she joked. Emily laughed as she watched her go to the sink with her plate before giving her the pills she has to take "Here honey" she told her. "Thank you" Sasha said as she took them popping them in her mouth before getting a drink and swallowing them.

She sat back down drinking her coffee as she relaxed Emily finished her own food before taking her plate to the sink noticing her fiancé finished all of her food. She smiled happily to herself glad to see she's eating better she made another mug of coffee for herself  before sitting down again. "So do you want a big wedding with all of our friends from work there?" Sasha asked randomly Emily's eyes flicked up to her searching her face to see what she was feeling. "Honestly I kinda have been thinking about us taking some time off to go get married but I also love the idea of sharing such a special day with our friends" Emily told her. "I kind of like the idea of it just being us too but they're so excited I feel bad leaving them out" Sasha said as she toyed with the idea in her head. "Aww love it's ok we'll figure it out" Emily told her as she smiled. "Obviously I have to heal first and get whatever is going on with these nightmares and flashbacks dealt with first." The brunette confessed. "Would you like me to call and ask Tara if she minds scheduling therapy sessions with you?" The older woman asked softly. Sasha's eyes flicked up meeting her fiancé's loving gaze, her eyes showed just how scared she really was. Seeing this broke Emily's heart she wanted to help her but wasn't sure how it was hard for Sasha to open up about everything even to her. "Do you think it will help?" Sasha finally asked quietly, Emily stretched her hand out placing her hand over her fiancé's. "I think it's worth trying she's helped with things for me after horrible cases" Emily confessed. "Ok let's try it but can you be there with me please?" Sasha asked, Emily smiled "If you want me to be there with you I will be" she told her.