I stare at my phone screen
5:48 am
I lay in my own cum wishing you were touching me crush, hurt me with lust. Prove my worthless thoughts right. Tell me I'm only a good cock sleeve. Why couldn't i beat my meat, why was I cursed with a cunt? I was told once i tasted like pennies but all i could remember was the taste of your cum as you go to lay on my bed scrolling through your dms with your ex. Did you feel guilty after? Maybe i feel guilty, I definitely do I'm jerking off to your best friend yet I can't forget the way you shoved your cock down my throat. I can't forget how you left me alone every night to cut myself with that dollar tree blade. I've gotten over you but i still feel your presence on my bed while i lay on my side. Did it feel good, was i good?
He's sleeping peacefully
5:56 am
Sometimes I believe it's selfish for me to believe I'm more than a sex toy. It didn't bother me, i saw how every man looked at me. I wanted you to love me but now i feel sick when people touch me. I don't blame you for choosing her, she was beautiful. I'm sure you were jealous of me i mean i was fine, you were just fine if that makes any sense. She called me papi, so you lost that one. You couldn't stand it so you went for the one you hated the most and my best friend. You're funny i can tell you that for sure but who's laughing now? Not you but he is. "Your best friend" he makes me smile without making my tummy nauseous.
Of course it bothered me
6:06 am
How could it not? I cried all the time to the point i didn't have a reason to go out. You think I wanted this, we were supposed to be forever but you ruined it. You tainted me with so much sin, i felt like I carried that cross. Oh how i pray it all away, i blame myself because at the end of the day i forgive you. I loved you, you were my friend so deep down i do miss you. My friend i miss him, I grieve him deeply. I don't regret meeting you but I regret the trust I gave you. You plunged every feather from my pure white wings, the same white i was supposed to wear for us. I gave you my dreams, i gave you my soul, my fashion, my faith,my honor, I made you.
I haunt you
6:14 am
I live in the shadows of your games, i stay in the corners of your school. No matter how much you try and forget my existence, words, beauty you won't ever forget but if you do you'll miss it. I hope you do but i can't do that; i can't wish that onto you. I gave you a chance when no one else would love your sorry ass now look at you. Pathetic pathetic little boy poor baby doesn't know what's good for him. I'll live in your dreams, choking you as you cum in me. You'll wake up alone then remind what you did to me, you'll remember the tears, the aches and pains of my back and my tired eyes as i tell you I'll miss you when you go. You never said it back, i know you regret that more than anything. I was too cool for you anyways.
I'm fast asleep
6:23 am
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