'We can never be irreparably broken' After 6 months and 12 days. I was completely blank. Every single second of my life I kept missing him. As if a part of me was dead. Every small thing reminded me of him. He was gone, and I needed to accept this. But I don't know why I wasn't ready yet. Why wasn't I? Death is a part of life. Everyone has to go someday. I knew this but understanding this was way more difficult. MY mom kept telling me to move on. But every time I tried to. I failed. He was different from everyone from every other boy. No body can love me like he did. How can I move on? It's been 6 months and still I can't forget the way he used to pronounce my name,His smile, His style, His messy hair, Most of all Him. I want him back. I want to run to him and just wonna hug him tightly and then I am never going to leave him. When I first met him I was never in love with him. But when he told me that he loved me. I was astonished to hear that. But gradually I managed to stay away from him. But after all of a sudden I was the one falling for him. He made me fall in love with him And now? When I am completely in love with him. He's gone. Woow. It's like I hate him for leaving me. But I love him. I wish, like before I could tell him not to leave me. And Now when he is gone. I want him here with me. I want to share every moment of my life with him. Every morning I wake up just in hope to see his 'Good morning love' texts on my mobile screen. But No, Nothing. How can he? right? He's dead. Why can't I just accept this? It's hard right. All I know now is that life is too short for crying, or for waiting for anyone. Now that he's gone, I try not to hurt anyone. To stay Happy,To make others happy. Because you don't know When death is going to catch you. Although , I miss him. Deep down inside there is always a me waiting for him. But on the bright side, I know He's there with me. Where ever he is. He's Happy. He's in a better place. This is what makes me smile. He makes me smile sometimes even if he is gone. That's sweet. I'm Happy to have our memories they're my only hope to live. I am happy to live this life now because its what he gave me. It's what God decided. And yeah, No one can change it. So I am Happy because even if he is gone sometimes I sence his presence with me. At the end I did accept that He is gone but He is here with me. And that is something no one can change. I'm glad to have this life. For once I was all broken but they say, you can never be irreparably broken. And that's true.
People should know that, If they love someone. Stay with them forever, If they are going to leave Someone , leave them today. because it's going to hurt. If they are going to change, change for the good. And if they are talking, make sure you mean what you say. This life is too short to hurt someone or to break a golden heart of someone. Because for them it's really hard to move on once you leave them. I want people to know 'The more difficult something is, the more rewarding it is in the end'.
'We can never be irreparably broken' There is always a way to make yourself Happy with your life.
Gt"6
