Falling

Chapter 1

Sitting here lying in my bed my mind starts to wonder if I'll ever find the one. I don't know what's wrong with me no one has ever wanted to date me. I wonder how do all these other girls have a man to date but I have myself and my best friend. Do I need to change? Do I need to be a better person?

As I sit here staring at my Cellphone I hear my message go off. "Hey Millie, it's your neighbor down the street how are you? I wanted to say that I like you a lot." I looked at the message and wondered why Jake was sending me this he was 8 years older than me and I was only 13. "Maybe it was a mistake?" Jane Said. Jane is my best friend who has had a crush on me since 2nd grade we have tried to date multiple times but it didn't go so well.

Millie and Jane were out on a run at the beach and they got distracted looking at the sunset because it was so pretty. "Millie look I need to tell you something I really like you again. I know we have tried to date before and we havnt worked out but I like you and always have since we have met" Millie turned and looked at Jane "I don't know what to say Jane we have tried so many times since we have met and I'm gonna be honest I'm in love with Jake." Jane looked at Millie and shook her head "you have been talking to Jake haven't you Millie?!" "Umm yeah I have and for the past couple months we have had an amazing relationship. I love him a lot." Millie explained. Jane grabbed her stuff and walked away from Millie. "JANE!!" "Where are you going" Millie yelled in frustration. "I'm going away from you Millie I can't be friends with someone who is dating a 20 year old and claims that they are in love. You are 13 years old and you don't even know what love is.

A couple minutes later while Jane was on his way home he had a very weird feeling that he didn't feel comfortable with. Jane got so worried that he started sprinting home so fast when Jane got home, he could finally breathe but he was still nervous that something bad was going to happen. I have no clue what is making me so nervous maybe it's the fact that I told Millie that I didn't wanna be friends anymore with her and I just straight up walked away or maybe it's the fact that i basically told her to be with a 20 year old man if she wanted too.

Maybe I'm a horrible friend but it's Millie's choice to be with him. When I was little I got Raped by my Dad and didn't tell anyone not even Millie. I'm fort-teen and I had to deal with him raping me over and over every night. He told me I couldn't tell anyone and that it was a game. This happened from the time I was born right before my for-teen birthday. One Night it was just me and my Momma home because dad got stuck at work. In school I always got told and I state "If someone ever does something to you and they tell you not to tell anyone and to keep it a secret, tell a trusted adult anyway" so I did and my mom took me to the hospital it did a rape kit and it came back positive because he raped me right before he went to work that morning.

My Momma looked over at me while I was sitting there she came over to me and hugged me so tight and started to ball. She didn't want to let me go but then the cops came in "Ma'am I'm sheriff Rylie and I'm Officer Dox, can you step out here so we can talk please." Momma looked at me and slowly let go of me "I'll be right outside Jane yell if you need anything." Momma said I shook my head and watched momma walk out the room. I could see them talking ummm I wonder what is going to happen. I was young so I didn't really know a lot but at the same time I did know a lot because of everything that happened to me.

While I was sitting in my room thinking and remembering bad old memories I heard a knock on my door. "Jane, it's time to eat dinner" my step dad told me. "Ok SD I'll be downstairs in a second" I yelled. I don't call my step dad, dad yet it's not that I don't want to it's that Ive always been scared too. My Momma didn't rush into a marriage my Momma was abused by my dad and raped as well but when my momma met my step dad she knew that he was gonna marry him. My stomach started growling and making funny noises so I decided to go ahead and go downstairs to eat dinner.

"Yumm I smell Turkey and mashed potatoes!" I said excitedly. I pulled out my chair and sat down at the table,momma brought me my plate of food "Thanks Momma!! It smells amazing!" "You're welcome sweetie" Momma said with a big smile on her face. Ever since Momma and SD got married Momma has been so happy like way happier then she was with my dad. Maybe I should go ahead and tell Millie what happened because I can't have her dating Luke he is twenty years old and she is thirteen years old, I can't have my best friend go through the same shit I've been through. I'm Messaging Millie's mom and telling my parents and calling the Police!!