blame the champagne || s. sallow one-shot

part 1: blame the champagne

"i know, right?" she said, a faint, almost bitter edge creeping into her voice. "everything i ever wanted to be..."

"do you ever wish things could have panned out differently, sebastian?" she asked the question softly after a beat, but there was a weight to it, like she already knew the answer.

sebastian tried to find the words, but only stayed silent. he would be lying if he said he didn't—if he didn't wish, deep down, that things had turned out differently. but he'd had a year to accept it. a year to make peace with the reality handed to him, to bury the gnawing what-ifs under layers of duty and time. he'd convinced himself he was moved on. convinced himself that this was what was meant to be.

but that was before today. before this party. before the sight of the ring—her ring—shining like a cruel reminder of everything he had lost.

well, what good was wishful thinking, really? what was it but a self-inflicted wound that only festered into regret? what was done was done. and what was done was them—two separate paths now, carved out by the choices of time.

"why am I even asking? i'm sure you wouldn't have it any other way." her voice broke through his thoughts, laced with a softness that almost felt too painful.

"but... isn't this what you wanted?" he forced himself to meet her eyes, though the words scraped his throat like nails. "to settle down, build a family?"

her eyes dropped to the ring again, the weight of it between them. she didn't answer right away, as though she were trying to decide how to put it into words. the silence stretched thin before she spoke, her voice almost wistful, a quiet ache behind it.

"i... it is. just not like this."

sebastian frowned, his brow furrowing deeper with confusion. not like this? what did she mean by that? was she implying that this—this life, this marriage, this future she was about to walk into—wasn't what she had hoped for?

but he knew better than to be presumptuous. the last time he'd done that, he'd assumed she would be there, waiting, standing beside him until the end of time. and look where that had gotten him. he had learned, painfully, that hope could be a dangerous thing when it wasn't tempered by reality.

and for all he knew, maybe she wasn't so much regretting her choices as she was adjusting to them. the end of a decade-long relationship. the move from a cozy one-bedroom flat to a grand, unfamiliar manor that seemed more like a cage than a home. an engagement. the pressure of it. the weight of the new, the unfamiliar. it had to leave her feeling a little unmoored, a little lost. after all, hadn't it left him feeling the same way when he was forced to step into a future he never wanted?

so instead of speaking, of pressing her for answers he wasn't sure he wanted to hear, sebastian did what he'd become so adept at doing in the last year: he held his tongue. he let the silence stretch between them, a thin, fragile line neither of them seemed willing to cross.

but then, after a long beat, her voice broke through the quiet, softer than before, hesitant and unsure.

"i mean... i..." she hesitated for a fraction of a second, her fingers twisting slightly around the diamond ring. "i just miss going out on adventures, taking down bad guys, the daily prophet reporting about my adventures. i'm sorry, i know, i sound so green-eyed."

"well, if it's any consolation," he said, trying to lighten the mood, "i think you were in a witch weekly article."

she elbowed him lightly, her lips curling into a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes. "not a consolation. you know i don't like being treated like a celebrity."