It all started when I was 11 or 12, I decided to play Fortnite. I am so glad I made that decision..cause little did I know a beautiful chocolate boy was awaiting for me, his big beautiful hair those chocolate eyes.. I was overwhelmed with such emotions.. anyway lets get into the story..
2020:
I grabbed my controller and sat in front of my screen, I loaded up Fortnite and I joined him "Hey Matthew" my heart skipped a beat when I heard his voice through my headphones I unmuted my mic "h-hi zakai" I stutter out, he makes me so flustered. I rub my hand on my controller *I wish he was here* I think to myself "what do you wanna play?" zakai asks "hm, party royale?" I asked "mm alright" zakai agreed, he put on party royale and like a good boy, I ready up. it takes a bit for us to load in but when I did I put on my best Fortnite skin and hopefully it'll impress zakai. I do my favorite emote next to zakai "I like your emote, you just bought it?" zakai asks I blush "yeah, I got it last night when the shop updated." I stated "mm its nice" zakai says "how are you today zakai?" I asked him "I'm good bro" zakai says, ughh there it is.. that terrible word that nobody wants to here when you're in love..bro..
I sigh *why, why doesn't he feel the same?* I think to myself "hey you good?" zakai asks "huh yeah why?" I ask "I asked how you are" zakai says "oh my bad I couldn't hear you, I'm good tho" I say "that's good." zakai says "are you having fun?" I questioned him "oh yeah man, you?" zakai said "yeah, wanna run some duos though?" I say "for sure dude" zakai said we return to lobby zakai puts battle royale duos on "you ready man?" zakai says to me, *its so hard to not tell him how I feel but...i-i don't know how much longer I can last with him not knowing* "helloo? Matty you there?" zakai says to me breaking me out of my trance "oh yeah sorry, what did you say" I ask him "if..if you where ready to run some duos.." he says "hm yeah" I say 'hey man you alright it seems like ur spacing out a lot"
he says with worry in is voice "yeah sorry I've just been extra tired from this pandemic for some reason sorry about that" I say with a lazy sigh *its just a little white lie..it doesn't matter* I reassure myself "hmm you wanna stop playing for now and rest?" he says "no..no sorry its okay lets run some duos!" I say "hell yeah, nigga." zakai says, I smirked *I am his little nigga* I think to myself "aight ready up" zakai says "alright." I say, I do as daddy says and ready up we get in the waiting lobby "lets go to slurpy." zakai says "alright." I say ugh I wanna slurp him up.
I jump out the battle bus and begin diving towards slurpy, soon my feet touch the ground after using my favorite battle pass glider. I grab a gray shotgun I see sitting on the ground "people near me." zakai says "coming, how many?" I ask him "just a duo, they seem kind of sweaty" zakai says, I run towards zakai and start helping I need to impress him, I knock the guy "I got him" I say.
"yeah I need help" zakai says in a panic "I got you." I said, I start attacking the guy because nobody hurts my baby zakai how dare they even try..the things I would do to protect him and he doesn't even know..if only.. someday just maybe he will... just maybe, the game ended shortly after, we lost though "man people are waaay too sweaty" zakai says "ha yeah for real!" I say with a slight giggle,
"soo wanna run some more duos or what?" I say, "mm its pretty late man finna go to sleep, wanna play tomorrow though?" he says yawning, "sure! goodnight zakai." I say "night bro" zakai says, I loaded off my game and turned off the TV, I walked to my room and slumped onto my bed instantly..but I wasn't tired enough to sleep my mind was to clouded by zakai, I wonder what he would think of me if I told him? would he hate me? would he return the same feeling? no..I cant ruin our friendship id rather be his bestfriend then be nothing at all, 'but what if he likes you back' a small voice said in the back of my head, 'but what if he doesnt' another voice spoke,
man this is to much I'll just try to sleep on it, just..maybe tomorrow well be easier..just maybe,
I see a light and there is a boy, brown skin the color of a Hershey kiss, he looks beautiful but everything is blurry..come closer mystery boy.. He begins walking closer almost as if he could hear my thoughts..its him.. zakai "matthew..I want you Mattty." zakai say he then grabs his own area and grunts "Take me zakai..take me.." I say.
