Love is...
It all started off as a dream..
Now I could only wish it were all a nightmare.
You make me want to die.
I want to feel the warmness of the scarlet red that lies deep within all of our veins.
I wish I could forget about you, about us...
The way we laughed, the way we kissed, all our fights.. I can't forget about you.
I remember every word that you ever said, it all just keeps spinning around in my head...
Forever and Always; 2 years doesn't seem like forever, nor does it sound like always.
I miss your touch, I always felt so safe with you. I miss your smell; gasoline, oil, cigarettes, and Axe combined. I miss your eyes, as blue as the sky. Your smile, that only I ever witnessed... I can't move on because I'm so fixated on everything about you. Everytime I try to move on, you come right back into the picture and make me forget why I was even mad at you in the first place, or why I was so ready to move on and better myself. It was such a wonderful dream.. Now I could only wish it were all a nightmare.
All the bullshit you put me through, only made me stronger. I was so stupid to see that the reason you've been so short with me lately, was because you were too busy laughing with her, the way only you and I laughed with each other. Touching her; the way you used to touch me. Smiling with her, like you used to smile with me. Kissing her playfully up against a wall, the way you used to kiss me. Twirling her around in your arms in a fairytale sort-of way, as soon as she enters the door; the way you used to greet me. Loving her and never fighting, the way we used to be in the very beginning. Bullshitting with her the way you bullshitted with me. Now the two of you are body to body, the way we used to be. What's so special about her? What does she have, that I dont; besides you?
The warmness of the scarlet red that lies deep within all of our veins, never felt so warm. . The room's spinning, along with every word you ever said to me. There's a pool of scarlet red lying all around my body. This doesn't seem like a dream anymore...
Now it's all a nightmare.
You two share the same last name; thanks for letting me know ya'll were married, and we were done. I hope karma bites you in the ass and fucks you so hard you die!
I see stars, the room's turning black.. I'm freezing. I'd beg for you to hold me, to warm me up... to save me; Seeing as you've moved on, I guess I'll be 6 feet under. You can't save me anymore. I'm letting go.
Letting go is so hard to do. I never thought it'd come to this. I thought we would take our last breath together, silly me! I'm not Shakespeare, and you're NOT Romeo, but SHE'S your Juliet, NOT me.
You said it was over between the two of you... How come the rain is pouring from my eyes? Is it because I know that every word that comes out of your mouth is nothing but lies? Or is it because I'm buried 6 feet under, awaiting your arrival?
I guess it's just a little too late, you've made your bed, and now... now I'm dead. There are a ton of incisions on my body, but truth be told? It took too long, so I took a bullet to the head. I'm sorry, but I couldn't deal with this pain anymore. You can't do better. . So why would I sit around and wait for you to be done with her? You had the best, and boy, you lost me. QUICK.
When the forensic pathologist unveils my cold, dead body, I hope you are in the room with him as he examines my dead body; I hope you notice the tattoo etched into my heart, as he holds what used to be the greatest gift I have ever given you, in his hands. I want you to see all of the incisions on my body.... I want you to know that, yes, you ARE the reason I am dead. The last amount of blood I had, had left my body not long after I had finished carving your name deep into my chest.
It all started off as a dream, and it all ended with a suicide.
Love is.... a NIGHTMARE.
...A NIGHTMARE.
