that damn word (Keegan Russ x Aaron)

don't you think that you need somebody?

playlist that would FIT I think :
silver springs - Fleetwood Mac
November rain - guns n' roses
hallelujah - Jeff Buckley
I know it's over - the smiths
mayonaise - the smashing pumpkins
the same deep water as you - the cure
happy when it rains - Jesus and the Mary chain
my sweet lord - George Harrison
wish you were here - pink Floyd
stairway to heaven - led zeppelin
pale blue eyes - the velvet underground
strange days - the doors

♡

Aaron wasn't exactly what some would call a strong person. always afraid of everything. love, hate, anger, emotions in general. every day being exactly the same for him. desperately trying to find a reason to let himself be happy again.

"fuck, am I late again? I swear this alarm don't work." Aaron says pacing around the room trying to find this phone. 7:26.
"man I'm so fucked." he says putting on his jacket and going downstairs. he looks around the living room, trying to see where everybody is.
empty as always I see. he takes a apple out of the fridge and begins to eat it. yeah no that's taking up time. "fuck this." he says with a sigh as he rushes out of the house. once he's outside, the same shitty town with nothing to do with it. wow what a great day.

"I'm sorry I got a little late. I was actually sick so I didn't realize it took me so long to wake up, I apologize." stop lying Aaron. he says looking nervously at his boss? well yeah sort of. he hated books but now he's gotta work in the library. how unfortunate. but yeah he needs a "job" as his parents require. if it's working in a library. then so be it.

"yeah no problem, just make sure it doesn't happen again."
oh great. atleast he isn't that moody. Aaron thinks to himself. okay gotta start the day now.

♡♡

keegan's pov

keegan would be known as the prince charming if he was in a Disney movie. everything about his life was perfect. perfect parents. perfect home. perfectly rich. always at top of his class. popular with the ladies too. his life was perfect. almost too perfect..? maybe that's what everybody else thought. he knew something was off about him. he tried many times to ask himself, what was it? no matter how many people he was with. he felt his heart being empty still.

knock knock.

"is there seriously just one library in this whole town, how stupid. in New York we ac-" Aaron cuts Keegan off. this is a Library and this boy is screaming. I don't get paid enough for this.
"sir this is a library keep your voice down, please."
aaron says with a sigh. the day hasn't even started properly yet and he's already done with it.
"oh yeah I apologize, anyway ugh can you show me where all the books about uh love.. are I just wanna give it a try." Keegan surpasses a nervous chuckle. Aaron raises an eyebrow but doesn't say anything about it.
"yeah sure follow me." he shows him around the library. the Library was empty most of the times no one in this town gave a fuck about history or literature, including Aaron.
"I want this one" Keegan says pointing out to a specific book in the shelf. Maurice by E.M. Forster.
"do you know that book is about gay love in the 20th century or something?" Aaron says with an eyebrow raise. he didn't expect this guy to be reading books about homosexual love. but who's he to say anything after all.
"yeah I'm just trying new things out to read nothing more." sure.
"I didn't ask you to explain yourself Mr...?" Aaron starts.
"Keegan. it's Keegan." keegan.
"nice to meet you Keegan I'm Aaron." Aaron says with a friendly smile and extends his hand out for a handshake. Keegan shakes his hand warmly. you have some warm hands aaron. keegan thinks to himself.
"the feeling's mutual, also I already saw your name on the name tag anyway." Keegan says with a giggle. the sound beautiful and rich. Aaron looks into his eyes softly, something unexplainable in his gaze. Keegan looks back at him for a moment they forget they're in a stupid town in a stupid library being stupid. it was just them and their eyes.
"uh so I'll r..return this after I read thank you, Aaron." Keegan says with a weak smile. the cold is getting to him after all.
"you're welcome, see you again." Aaron says with a smile. watching Keegan, as he exits the library. what was that? you know what, maybe having a friend wouldn't be so bad. friend. god I hate that damn word so much.

♡

to be continued...