save me from them

chapter 12

"have you seen a gag around the house? do your packmates have a gag?"

"I don't know..."

"jisung may have one. but he keeps that in his room." jeongin adds

"have you seen jisung with it?" iseul asks and seungmin shakes his head "have you licked jisung before? have you licked any of your pack mates before?"

seungmin nods "licked them all..."

"then there's nothing to worry about right? they haven't gagged you once."

seungmins eyes go wide at the realization, a tiny bit of fear melting away in him. of course he still thinks about it, the what if they do? what if they change their minds? but he atleast feels a little better.

"I want you to lick them anytime you have the urge too. doing it more times will help you realize that they won't hurt you. that they won't change their minds. don't worry about doing this all at once by the way. slow steps. we'll talk about it after I ask you one more thing. now, has your pack ever fed you dog food?"

"no..."

"so whenever you feel bad about shifting, or being a hybrid, remember that. remember that they aren't going to feed you that and they never have. now, I kmow this is a lot to take in. so lets start with slow steps. would you feel more comfortable shifting every two weeks or licking when you feel like it?"

"licking..." seungmin holds tighter onto jeongin and he kisses his forehead.

"okay good! we'll start with that and gradually work up to shifting every two weeks. but please try to shift soon, for your own health."

"okay... I'll try."

"if it makes you more comfortable, shift solely with jeongin okay? whatever works is what works. we just need you healthy for your pups to keep growing yeah? how are they doing?"

"they're growing good!" seungmin beams, smiling widely "bump is still small. can't wait for it to grow!"

"I'm glad! how are you coping with this? I understand that having miscarriages before can make it scary."

"I know innie alpha will protect me. won't hurt me or let me get hurt. and lix and hyunie! kinda trust the rest but been closest with them." jeongins alpha soars at that, over the moon that he makes seungmin feel protected.

"that's good! I'm glad you feel that way. and have nightmares ever been an issue for you? or flashbacks?" iseul asks, writing down stuff.

"both have... usually have nightmares but alpha helps me. barely slept a couple of days last week.. but it's gotten better. can sleep more now. flashbacks aren't as often as before. but bad... and scary."

"how have you been managing those?"

"uhm... don't really... innie just gets me out of it and has me do something... I don't know.. it's so weird after... like... can't think... just overwhelmed."

"I do breathing exercises with him afterwards. if he wants to talk about it we will. if not, we just cuddle." jeongin states and iseul nods.

"your body goes into a state of shock afterwards that's why you get overwhelmed and can't think. what are your most common flashbacks?"

"uhm... I.. it depends. usually it's presentation anniversaries... but if I'm feeling bad about being a hybrid it's always the first time they punished me for it. and just... certain positions I lay in can trigger it.."

"okay. so when that happens again I want you to use the technique I showed you last time okay? tense all your muscles for a minute and slowly release. and make sure you communicate with someone that you had a flashback so we can keep track of those. maybe start writing them down or have your packmates help you with that?"