Secret Admirer || Phan

. Chapter 2 .

AYEEEE I FINALLY UPDATED WEW , IM SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING IN A WHILE , I JUST HAVENT REALLY BEEN IN THE MOOD BUT I AM BACKKK WEW -A

.Dans Pov.

God, im such a dick. I dont even know why I treat Phil like that. Hes done nothing to me, and I hate seeing him cry and upset. It breaks my heart, but for some reason I feel the need to keep up my big headed, douche ego and bully him.

In all honesty I just want him to be mine. But im not gay. I cant be gay. Im Dan Howell, the most popular guy in school who has a reputation for playing girls and bullying the losers. Im not some faggot. But Phil . Hes just perfect. His beautiful eyes and his cute dress sense. The cute little lip bite he does when he is concentrating or nervous. His gorgeous smile which does nothing but give me butterflies.

Hes just perfet in every way. I need to find a way to make things up to him. To prove to him that he is loved, wanted, cared about. That he is more than just a person who people bully. That he is worth something. Because damn, he is worth more than this entire universe.

But he doesnt see that, because of me. Its my fault he doesn't see how beautiful he is. Its my fault he doesnt feel wanted.

And I need to show him that he is. But how do I do that without him knowing its me. He cant know its me. He'll hate me more than he already does. He will think im joking.

But Im not joking. I cant get him out of my mind, even now. Hes always there. Imprinted permanently. His beautiful face is always creeping back to my mind and staying there. The nights when I cant sleep because I feel like shit for hurting him and I write every single thing I like about him on paper. The days when I cry when no one is looking at me becuause I cant cope with the fact that I am hurting such a beautiful creature.

I need Phil to know how I feel, but he cant know its me. How would I do that though? Wait..

I have the perfect idea..

Sorry for this crappy short chapter, its just kind of a little filler I guess Idek , anywaysss ill try and update soon! Bye guys! -A