I'm a girl who loves freedom, i care about my family, my friends and of course about kittens. I was once told by my teacher that if you want to achieve your goals you must feel yourself for that thing. But I don't feel myself, i don't really like myself. I just pretend that i love myself but who am i lying to? i feel like i am just a trash, no function, no importance. But every time i want to end my life i start to feel i worth something, maybe because i'm scared of ending my life?
anyway- this is my favorite word, i use every time. i think you know why.
what color i like? i don't know that either... i just know that i love cats, that is the only reason i like to go outside. i liked shopping but i'm not enjoying it no more.
after my teen romance, i'm not good person anymore...i thought i was good at first but it was all false. what can i do?
i love my mom, but ever time i want to show her my love, i end up arguing with her. that is hurtful for me and for her too.
I have friend who constantly tells me that she wants a therapist, jeez girl give me a break. i tried to help her but every time i try she tells me that i can't get it. but i am soooo tired, i want break from her. get a life girl.
about my dad. he doesn't know what he wants, i'm also tired of him. he's alcoholic... he destroyed my life.
only thing i want to live for is my sister i don't want her to cry. i feel i will destroy her little life if i i'm gone.
i feel i'm burning alive...
