16

Back to school

I had just turned 16
I spent my birthday with my boyfriend.

Yesterday I found out he cheated on me
I knew he was still in love with his ex
I felt it was my fault
He had a sleepover at his exes the day after my birthday
Bonfire night.
The day everything fell apart

Then yesterday I had gotten a message
I was added into a group chat
"Tell him what happened he deserves to know"
What was happening??
Long story short, my boyfriend and his ex had sex
The day after my birthday
16 was already off to a horrible start

Today was the first day back at school after a week off
I walked into my first lesson
Science
That was when my bestfriend asked how me and my boyfriend were doing
I burst out in tears and she took me out of the lesson

I told her everything
The messages.
The betrayal.

Once I had calmed down we walked back into the classroom, I had my head down in embarrassment as the whole class had just seen me cry
My friends comforted me through out the lesson as I tried to concentrate on the chemistry work infront of me
My head was spiralling. I wanted to marry him and he knew that
Why did he do me so dirty
Did he not love me?
How long was he faking it for

At break time I dropped to the floor and started crying again
My friends huddled around me as I sobbed
I could see my now ex in the corner of my eye. He had something on his mind but I couldn't quite tell what
Did he feel sorrow?
Or did he feel proud of himself for what he had done

My friends boyfriend gave us dirty looks
He stood in a circle with a few of his friends,staying far away from us
My friend scolded him and told him what had happened to me just 2 days ago
It was humiliating
How could I have been so stupid
Why did I let that happen to me

The loneliness was hitting me. I dragged myself through the hallways, the hallways which I was talking and giggling with my boyfriend in just a few weeks prior. My friends tried to cheer me up but deep down they knew it wasn't working

In English the 2 hours of sleep I had got to me. I spent most of the night hysterically crying.
My eyes went from looking at my paper to slowly closing and spacing of into my own world
A world where he didn't cheat

My head fell onto the table, catching up on the sleep I had missed

My friend tried to cover for me but it was no use as within a few minutes my teacher came rushing over

"WAKE UP, DO YOUR WORK"
"EXAMS ARE ONLY AT THE END OF THIS YEAR"

I woke up from her obnoxious screaming
Half asleep
I said "miss I can't my boyfriend just cheated on me"

"Just do you work" she said
I scrambled to do the rest of the work I had missed out on.

The rest of the day passed very slowly.