i know i get to attached.

chapter whatever.

I went home, promising myself that I would kill myself. I went home, and looked for the pills in my cabinet. I had a handful of tiny white pills. I was crying hysterically. I put them in my mouth, and waited for the pain to go away.

October 20, 2014.

I awoken in a white room, with no windows, mirrors, or furniture. just a bed, and a nurse. the nurse looked at me and said, "Joshua? you're finally awake! how are you feeling?"
I replied. "fine I guess. what happened?"
she looked at me with sad eyes, "you tried to kill yourself one week ago. you almost went into a coma. you're very lucky!" she smiled, so that made me smile. I thought to myself, "wow. I'm glad I'm alive, I'm glad I'm here. I'm happy!"
after two weeks of recovering, I went to school. I walked in, scared of being harassed again. but instead, people clapped, they smiled at me, and they said nice things! Kerri walked up to me and said, "why didn't you succeed?! I want you dead!!" I laughed, "yeah, well, you better get used to me, cause I'm going to be here for a while. bye bitch!" people clapped for that, which made me laugh. people bought me flowers, cards, candy, presents, & some people even gave me hugs! I finally felt like I belonged here. I was happy.
those weeks at school, people liked me, and cared about me. I met a girl.. Anna.
she had brown hair, hazel eyes, and the most beautiful smile. I fell in love with her the way you do with a pet. instantly. we talked, hung out, even flirted and hugged, held hands, danced under the stars with a bonfire lighting our dance floor.
but only did I know, I was getting to attached.