~+ Clean +~ •Lovertation•

~+ Chapter 6 +~

She froze and pulled away, looking at me.

"You... like me... more then..." she took in my words.

My breath hitched. "Uh. Well. Um... it's.. I guess.."

She stared at me.

"B-but it's okay if we stay friends, I just don't wanna lose you. I know you don't feel the sa-" I rambled.

She tilted my chin up and cut me off.

"Lover." She stopped me.

I looked at her, biting my lip.

I opened my mouth to speak, but I felt her lips on mine.

My eyes widened and I froze.

It took me a few seconds, but I eventually kissed her back, wrapping my arms around her neck.

We kissed for a little longer before we both pulled away to breathe.

"So... um.." I spoke.

She looked at me with a little smirk.

"Can we... not be... friends...?" I asked.

She laughed. "That's a really bad way to phrase that, sweet girl," she snickered.

I slapped her arm playfully, my whole face red.

"But sure. You're my girlfriend now. You don't get a say." She said casually.

My jaw dropped agape a little but I just nodded vigorously, staring at her like a lovestruck teenager.

Well, I was a lovestruck teenager.

She pecked me again, leaving me blushing again, then I buried my face in her shoulder again.

"Hey sunshine?" Rep asked.

I nodded into her, still refusing to move.

"Can we talk about yesterday please?" She asked softly.

I sighed but nodded.

"Okay. I don't know how to approach this, lov, but... I've started to notice a lot more things. The main thing is, you don't eat. I'm serious, I have barely ever seen you eat without staring at something in disgust and picking at it," she explained.

I tensed up but nodded.

"So... why?" She asks gently.

"Um. I just don't get h-" I start to say.

"No. Don't bullshit me, Lover. I don't care how bad the truth is. Tell me." She insisted, cutting me off.

I sighed.

After some silence I spoke. "Um... so.. there's this... I... um... sometimes... my head..." I start.

I take a shaky breathe.

"My head... gets really... loud... and..." I swallow.

"And it tells me things... and I believe things that... I think... I shouldn't... and I..." I explain awfully.

And Rep was so... calm and gentle. She nodded as I explained, her eyes full of concern.

"And I don't eat... um... cause.. I think... sometimes... that... i shouldn't..." I said.

I stopped talking, not willing to explain more.

I think she knew I didn't want to explain more and just held me there, kissing the side of my head while I stayed nuzzled into her.

"Okay... have you talked to someone other then me?" She asks.

I shake my head.

"Okay. Can I help you?" She asked softly.

I nodded.

"Alright... I think we can eat together, that could help. I can distract you, if your head is bothering you too much," she offered.

"Kay. I'm sorry," I spoke quietly and slightly guiltily.

"We're working on your apologies, pretty girl. You shouldn't apologize for no reason, sunshine." She said.

I nodded with a sigh.

"Okay. One question. When you say you're not hungry, or that you already ate, or that you felt nauseous like yesterday, were you lying?" She asks.

I swallow and nod a little.

I feel her take a deep breath.

"Yeah, alright. That's fine, we can work on that, yeah?" She said.

I nodded.

She pulled me out of her a little to adjust us so that my head was tucked into her side and my arm was wrapped around her waist while she ran her fingers through my hair.

"I like you," I blurted.

"Hm, really? I never would've guessed," she jokes with a smile.

I roll out of her arms and prop myself up on my elbows, staring down at her.

She looked so hot, her hair a little messy and draped over her shoulders.

She smirked at me.

I leaned down and kissed her again.

She smiled into it and kissed back.

It really started to set in that I could do that now.

I pull away again and snuggle back up to her.

I sigh again and slump against her.

She snickers and plays with my hair again until I drift off.

~+~
Reputation's Pov:

I know why Lover's so weird lately now.

She basically just admitted to me she had an eating disorder. I now am going to help her.

I still feel bad that her head is like that. I think I know why she apologizes so much now. She always thinks things are her fault.

I love her. She's basically mine now. I have been waiting SO LONG for this to happen.

I fell asleep, her in my arms as I breathed her rose scent in and my head on her pillow.

~+~+~

A/n: FLUFFY ANGST GUYS YOURE LUCKY.

Ok hehe bye bye.