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EVERYTHING CHANGES (Part II)

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Why does one keep hurting the person they love? Why does one make promises they don't intend to keep? Faye and Yoko's relationship was still in limbo. It was like they're not getting out of it anytime soon.

After what happened on Yoko's birthday, they became more distant from each other. Yoko wanted to reach out and talk it out, but it seemed like her girlfriend really needed the space. So, what can she do?

She misses her; of course she misses her. It was lonely and quiet in the loft without her. Especially in her bed. Whenever she goes to bed, she can smell her girlfriend's scent on the pillows and on the comforter.

God, she's all over the place. To her, this was harder because now she doesn't know how to fix it. Yoko wanted to make it all better, more than anything. But how can she? When Faye's making her feel like she doesn't want them to make up anytime soon.

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It's honestly getting ridiculous. Why was she the one who's being shunned when it wasn't her who had forgotten her birthday? And she wasn't the one who spent more of their time with their new funny and pretty secretary every day.

Hell, they must be together right now. It hurts to even think about it. Everything was changing around them, and she didn't know where to begin or where to pinpoint how their relationship drastically changed in just a few months. Yoko was determined, though. She will not cave. Not this time.

This was the longest they didn't speak to each other. Both of them couldn't believe that they lasted this long—no text, no phone calls. It irks her. God, it irks her that no matter how much she wanted to let it go, she still got the feeling that something was going on with her girlfriend and Marissa.

She wanted to believe that everything she told her last time they'd talked, well, if you could call that talking, was all true.

Could it be possible that even though Faye doesn't tell her secretary that she's a lesbian and that she has a girlfriend, Marissa could still see through it? To be honest, it wasn't really hard not to fall for her boss. She couldn't blame her, but that doesn't mean that it's okay.

Day by day, it's getting harder. It frustrates her that they're like this. She's not even sure if they're still together anymore. Everything was confusing to her at the moment; it's making her crazy.

She scoffed to herself. This wasn't her, since when did she get this jealous of someone she hadn't even met? She trusts Faye; of course, it was the other woman that she didn't trust. Because by the looks of things right now, this woman has got her lover's attention even if she told her she doesn't like her like that.

But what if Marissa sees her differently? She's overthinking this again. No matter how many times she assured herself that Faye wouldn't do her like that, it still feels like something's happening, and she couldn't stop the anxious feeling since Faye left.

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Yoko was trying really hard to make herself productive because if she didn't, she might actually go crazy. She's not even sure of what, of jealousy? Of missing her? Of losing her? Well, try feeling those three all at once.

She was at home drowning herself with a tub of ice cream, and she's on her fourth tragic love story film. Ugh.. typical. One more film, and she's about to break down. You know what they say: misery loves company, so.

She wishes she had someone to talk to, someone she can confide things with, where she can unload all this heaviness inside her chest. It really sucks that her best friend was the one who's causing all the pain she was feeling at the moment. This best friend of hers that happens to be the love of her life might be busy—so busy with someone else that she hasn't heard from in so many days now.