~+ Clean +~ •Lovertation•

~+ Chapter 1 +~

When the bus stops, signaling we arrived at school, I noticed her looking at me.

"Hm...? What? What is it?" I panicked.

"Nothing! Nothing, sorry. I zoned out." She stopped me.

I sighed in relief. "Right. Yeah, adhd. Sorry. I'm sorry," I apologize.

"Lovvy, we gotta work on your apologies. They're not necessary," she says.

I feel my heart flutter at that, lovvy.

"O-okay," I say, faking a small smile at her.

She smiles back, tilting her head with a curious expression. "What's up?" She asks.

"Hm?" I ask.

"You're being weird again. What's up?" She asks, getting up and grabbing our bags.

She towered over me, it was so fucking hot.

Right, I forgot to mention. I have a crippling crush on rep, and I was CERTAIN she didn't like me back. Certain.

No one could like me, I was a waste of space. I was just another plastic water bottle in an airport trash can. My parents sure made me feel so.

You see, my parents were always amazing around speak now, but when it came to me, I let them take their anger out on me, not caring about what it did. The stuff they've said have caused me so much shit, I don't want any of it to happen to speak, so I let them take it out on me. They're usually just talking, sometimes they hit me, but I don't mind, as long as speak is safe.

"Lovvy? Lov? Lover, hello? Love-" rep repeats.

"What? Sorry, I zoned out, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please don't hate me, sor-" I rambled, picking at my fingers nervously.

She grabbed my hands to stop me and pulled me out of the bus, onto the sidewalk.

She hates me. She hates me. She hates me. She hates me. She hates m-

"You don't need to apologize. Adhd is shit, I don't mind. I don't hate you. The opposite, I love you, don't think otherwise," she said, tilting her head in concern.

She always knew what I thought when it came to her. Well, most of it.

"Love you too," I smiled.

I looked down to hide the blush.

We love eachother, as friends. Nothing more. Just... just friends.

Yeah.

"Lov, we have math," she said, intertwining our fingers as friends and pulling me into the school.

I built up my facade and plastered it on the second we entered school.

—

Ugh, lunch. I love my friends, I hate food.

I walk out of my class and sigh. I put my backpack in my locker and slump against it, thinking for  a minute, before I feel arms around my waist and a chin on my shoulder.

I turn around to see Rep smirking at me. I'm literally a tomato. I giggle at her and lean into her, wrapping my arms around her waist and digging my head into her chest. 

She laughs and kisses my head, then grabs my hand and directs me to the lunch room, her arm now slung around my shoulder and pulling me close.

I smiled genuinely at the act, and followed her, in a fit of unsolvable giggles.

We arrived at the table we usually ate at and sat down. I, as usual, didn't get lunch.

"Lover," Midnights said, a joint trapped between her index and middle fingers.

"Hm?" I hummed in response, looking at her while leaning my head on rep's shoulder while she ate.

"When's the wedding?" She asked, looking at Rep and I then taking a puff and looking lovingly at 1989.

Rep and I flushed red.

"I should be asking you the same question," Rep replied, snarkily.

Midnights snorted in amusement and took another puff.

"Must have a lot of practice with snorting," evermore said, not understanding that was funny or rude.

The entire table erupted in laughter while midnights sat there, her hooded eyes now being widened to full length and her jaw dropped slightly.

"What's so funny?" Eve asked, her eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

"Nothing- n-nothing," I said in between laughs.

She shrugged and went back to her book.

I moved over to be sitting on rep's lap, leaning back into her shoulder and putting my head on it. She wrapped her arms around my waist and pulled me closer, putting her head on my shoulder.

I smiled silently, and felt lucky to have her as my best friend.

Everyone gave us looks, I didn't say anything and neither did Rep, we just sat there and listened to the conversation, enjoying each-other's presence.

That was the thing about Rep, she actually enjoyed having me alive. That was the one thing that was stopping me from just jumping off of something or swallowing a ton of sleeping pills.

"Ok, so," started 1989. I closed my eyes and tuned her rambling out.

Rep must've known or something, because she moved her one of her arms to my hand and took it, tracing small circles on it so I had something to focus on.

I get really stressed with large dialogue or conversations or lots of people, because I get nervous and overthink too much. Rep knew this, she was always there to help.

Soon enough; the lunch bell rang.

I didn't wanna move, so I turned around and wrapped my arms around her neck and my legs around her waist, sliding my head under her hair and into her shoulder and collarbone area.

She picked me up effortlessly, and brought us to algebra 2.

I stayed in her lap and listened to the lecture.

Rep was known as the mean girl around school, the teachers didn't mess with her either. The eras and I were the only unaffected people in the entire school.

If I was with her, they knew better then to fuck with me or her.

She scratched my head with one hand and held my waist with her other arm.

I smiled into her, and soon enough, drifted off to sleep.

—

My eyes fluttered open, I saw some random figures cleaning out of the classroom. I rubbed my eyes and stretched out, then remembered I'm on rep.

I saw her smiling at me. I smiled sleepily back and nuzzled my head back into her shoulder.

"Ah-ah-ah. No. We have classes." She teased.

I sighed and got up, grabbing my backpack and taking her arm in mine.

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A/n: so, first chapter of da new story.

This story's chapters are gonna be prob shorter bc I don't wanna write a 2000 word chapter every time. It'll all be at least 1200 tho.