Mo Dao Zu Shi: Astray

Forest of Webs, Part Three

"Cheating slut."

"You're bisexual? I can't trust you to be committed. What if you dump me and date a woman later on?"

"How could you love feminine men? They're only gay! They're not into women!"

"How could you like men with long hair? They're too feminine! Too gay!"

"Come on. Everyone knows that there aren't bisexual femme men. Only gays!"

"No wonder you're so weird, Tara. The kinds of guys you're into are fags!"

Tara was grateful to find Female Character x Female Reader one shots in middle school. That was a totally normal thing for a straight girl to do...

I think I might like girls. But I can't be a lesbian. Lesbians only like women, right? I still like boys...I guess that just means I'm straight.

Bisexuality was never presented to Tara as an option when she was a child. It was either straight or lesbian.

Why was it that everything Tara liked was scrutinized and scorned? Even the kind of partner she wanted. "You can't date women, that's abnormal! You can't date that man, he's too gay!"

As if bisexual feminine and femme men didn't exist?

Tara was fine with cishet men not wanting her. She preferred gender-nonconforming bisexual, pansexual, and other multisexual men.

Growing up, she realized that the fictional men she had crushes on and fantasized about dating tended to be canonically bisexual and pansexual. In dating sims, she noticed these kinds of men never felt threatened by her capabilities, unlike cishet men who seethed whenever she was better than them at anything. They showed admiration for her masculinity and did not force the cishet script upon her. She hoped to find real-life bisexual and pansexual men in her life someday.

Tara wanted a partner who would understand being attracted to multiple genders. Both of them would not call each other disgusting indecisive cheaters or say they don't exist. They would just love each other and accept all parts of themselves.

If Tara got with a man, she would just be called straight. If she got with a woman, she would just be called a lesbian.

She wasn't a "pure" lesbian or a "pure" straight woman, just an "impure" and "filthy" bisexual woman.

She was a "diet gay" or a "diet straight", depending on how the shitheads wanted to insult bisexuals that day.

She never dated a man. She never dated a woman. She never dated anyone. How did she even know she was bisexual?

But if she was a cishet woman, would she have felt so deeply hurt by such insults towards bisexuals? It was sad that the best way to know she was bisexual was through pain.

Why were bisexuals called breeders? Bisexuals like Tara didn't even want children.

Unfortunately, Tara realized even if the majority of the LGBTQIA+ community was generally cool and awesome, there were still bigots. A toxic vocal minority was racist, aphobic, transphobic, and biphobic.

Why was it that those shitheads insisted that there was only one way to be queer? Fucking gatekeepers.

Tara really wished the biphobic straights and gays shut the fuck up already. Who did they think they were, trying to decide her sexuality for her and telling her to suppress certain parts of herself and the kind of people she was attracted to?

Who did those idiots think they were, telling her how to dress? How to act? How to love?

They kept telling her to hate herself but she would love herself in spite. Fuck them!