'Don't Blame me' (Original Book Series)

"Call It What You Want"

-I didn't expect that...

Lian said.

-Well, now get used to it...
-Do you want to tell me something?...
-Why do you think like that?
-Hey, you came all sweet in the morning.  Now does that mean you wake up in the morning to buy coffee?
-For your information, I made it and bought the cookies.  And yes, I want to tell you something...
-It's not about my mother, is it?...
-Actually, it's not... it's about me...
-Whoa, what is it?...
-I'm making you the biggest invitation, I want you to stay with me for Christmas and New Year, at my parents' house...
...
-Come on Lian, it'll be cool!  I promise, and if not.  I'll take you away, but I know everything will be fine...
-Well, let me see... my schedule is very busy...

Lian pretends to catch an imaginary agent and starts to analyze...

-Well, according to my calculations, LETS GO!

Allison is filled with joy and puts the coffee and biscuit on the table next to her, and jumps onto Lian's lap.  He looks at that face full of happiness, he couldn't lie that he still loved her.

-Allison...
-Hey...
-Camaron will think it's strange...
-What do you mean Camaron?...
-Hey, the party, you and him...
-There is no me and him...Camaron finally followed his dream...he is free, and deserves all the best.

Lian was happy for him, but he was happier knowing that she could now be all his.  He just needed to prove it.  And if he...

-Can I?...
-What?...

Lian kisses Allison without fear, and of course, without remorse in her heart, she lets him.  This time was better than the others.  Her hands met in an act of love and desire, Allison again sits on his lap, but with her face turned towards him.  Lian wasn't going to let her escape like other times.  Nothing much happened at that time, just kisses.  Later, Lian had left the house, and Allison was playing with the cat in the living room, she receives a message and Lian.

[Hey, come outside...I want to hang out with you for a bit...]

Allison got ready, she wore green camouflage pants, along with a thin blouse inside, black and white sneakers.  Her blonde wavy hair and cell phone in hand, she went downstairs and found him outside.  Lian looked perfect, that messy but beautiful black hair, with a black overalls and a white t-shirt.  They held hands, it was cold, the red and orange leaves were falling on the street, it was autumn again, people were walking in that afternoon wind.  She felt his warm hand, she looked at those light brown eyes, the sun made the color lighter and more delicate, those natural lips, the small smile that was purposeful.  All of this made her crazy in love...

-Lian, are you afraid of falling in love?...
-I?  I already had...
-And what made you lose?...
...
-You, you made me fall in love again...

Allison, it's him!  Go girl!  It's your time... Alli holds both his hands and comes closer to his cold face, and kisses him again...

-Alli, I want you for myself...
...
-I'm afraid...

Allison said.

-Don't be afraid, be fearless and fight with me...kiss me every day, touch me whenever you want...be mine, only mine...
...

Her fear wasn't that Lian would hurt her, but rather her past with her ex-boyfriend Brandon.  That was so painful for her, her mother was right, that wound he left in her would never heal... that pain would be forever.  Or maybe not.  Lian was always different, and as much as that hurt, now it's in the past, and now she would have to live in the present.  Then...

-Yes, I want you, I desire you, I accept my life in yours... because of you I am the most badass girl who ever lived...
-You always were, and always will be...

He gives her a quick kiss and they continue walking.  Later they return to the apartment, Allison went to the bathroom and Lian went to choose a movie to watch.  Allison comes back and goes to make brigadeiro, he stays close to her.  While she stirred the pot, he talked about the details of her life...

-Did you know that autumn is my favorite season?...
-This is interesting...

For her autumn was sad and lonely, it was never good enough for Allison.

-Autumn for me is sad and lonely.
-He's not sad to me, in fact he wasn't...my father took me camping in the forest near the house...I loved it.  I loved seeing those trees changing color, seeing them follow a certain color palette.
-You're a cool but cute guy...
-You do not like it?...
-I love...

The brigadier was ready, the film started, but they didn't watch anything, as desire spoke louder, while the kiss was going on, Lian interrupted.

-First of all, I want to give you this...

He goes to the shelf and there at the bottom was a delicate and well-packaged black box.  Allison is surprised, and then slowly opens it, finding two silver diamond necklaces, with the initials "A" and "L" pendant.

-I don't believe!  How beautiful...
-Good thing...I thought about not buying a ring, very common, so there it is, my initial to be yours, and your initial to be mine.

Allison turns around and Lian puts the necklace on for her, and she does the same with it.  That was so special to them...but for her it served as courage and determination.  Then she kisses him again, but different from the other times, she takes down the straps of his overalls and takes off that shirt.

-Are you sure?...
-Yes, that's what I want...
...

He takes off her thin blouse, then her pants, and soon they were undressed, she lay down on the sofa bed, letting him kiss her body and go down to her legs, she was feeling light and free.  His hands held Alli's slender waist, her hands held his hair, he felt an emotion of pleasure, how she desired pleasure.  He lian was delivering what she wanted so much, in her thoughts Brandon never reached that level, her ex had never left her in that experience without explanation.  She breathed deeply with her eyes closed.  Lian climbed up to her face again whispering in her ear.

-Allison Clark, "Call It what you want."