'Don't Blame me' (Original Book Series)

"This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things"

-Vanessa, I don't think you came to talk about how beautiful the party is...
-You're right, Camaron Parker, I want to try my luck!
-Like this?...
-I was supposed to be your photographer, I was ready for that.
-You know you got into trouble, so it couldn't be.
-I can fix this!  Give me a chance.
-Vanessa, I don't think it's better.
...

Camaron leaves Vanessa behind and continues towards Allison, he touches her shoulder and she turns around.

-Camaron!  You are handsome...
-I should say this about you...
-Ah, stop, you are more attractive than usual
-I know, only I have this ability.

Allison laughs, on the other side was Vanessa watching all that, was her plans ruined by a girl from Pennsylvania?  How can this happen?  Vanessa is pissed, at first they were just whispers, but now they were voices, very loud voices, her mind was being haunted by demons.  Demons that she herself created.

-Camaron, I needed to talk to you, it's about my decision.

Allison finds his wrist, and realizes it was bandaged.

-What did you do to your wrist?...
-What?  That?  It's nothing...it's from the hospital...

Immediately she noticed that he was nervous, maybe he was lying, but why?  Allison tries to insist when she feels a painful twinge in her arm.

-There!  What the fuck?...

She noticed that her hand was bleeding, and her arm too.  When she sees it, it was Vanessa with a dinner knife in her hand.   As she prepares to stab Alli, Camaron steps in front, causing Vanessa to fall onto his bandaged wrist.  Camaron screams in pain, writhing on the ground.  The people around were desperate, flashes could be seen, screams could be heard.  Vanessa screams.

-I AM YOURS NOW!  AM!

Vanessa was about to hit Camaron in the heart.  Then Allison hits her head with a heavy wine bottle.  Making her fall to the floor in pain.  The security guards grabbed Vanessa, Allison lifts Camaron, taking him to another floor of the building.   They heard Vanessa screaming from afar.

-CAMARON I WILL HAVE YOUR HEART FOR MYSELF!  EVEN IF I RIP IT OUT OF YOU!!!  I AM YOURS, I AM ONLY YOURS!!!  MOM, MOM!!!HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Carlos had stopped the party, and didn't let anyone leave the building, he called the police and more help.  He went up looking for the two, while they are on the other floor, in the open sky on the balcony.  Allison tried to take the band off her wrist, but Camaron wouldn't let her.

-Cum!  Why don't you leave it?  What is it?
-You do not want to know...
-He speaks!  Please, I don't want to have secrets from anyone...please.
...

Camaron slowly removes the bandage from his wrist which is already starting to turn red with blood.  Allison sees a huge cut on her wrist, she looks at it in disbelief.  That wasn't normal to see in a person who could be her love.

-Camaron, why?...
...

Camaron starts to melt into tears.

-I'm tired, I lost Allison in life, I don't have parents, for them I'm dead, my brother promised me life and gave me heartbreak, I lost my love for myself.  My heart doesn't deserve you, you don't deserve it, pain is my only medicine, I'm rotten inside.  Can I promise you love?  No, I can't, because mine died a long time ago.  I'm scared of life, of this shit they created for me... I want my home.  I want my peace, I want my freedom to be who I really am.  And you can't give it to me... no one can help...
...

Allison was sore from all of this, she bathed her face in salt water from her eyes.  She wanted to understand, but this time she didn't understand that pain.

-You're right, Camaron.  I can't help you, but neither can death, you are brilliant, you are forever mine... and no one will take that away from me.  So you love me?
...
-I ASKED IF YOU LOVE ME!!!
-YES!!!  FUCK!!!  I LOVE YOU .  And I will always love you inside...
-So don't say goodbye to the world, don't say goodbye to this shitty life you think about having... fight for it, every single day, I want you to promise me.  Promise that you will be free in this world, that you will find life in this world, even if it hurts to live.
...

Allison places her cold, blood-stained hands on his wet face, she presses her nose to his, and closes her eyes.

-Camaron, I want you to light up the world, I want you to be an inspiration for many young people like me.  I want you to find your best friend within yourself.  But my beloved Camaron, today destiny showed me that we have a flaw, I will hurt you as you will hurt me.  So run into the light, but run alone.  Without me... We were never our own dreams...
...
-Allison, I can't share my life with someone else right now.
-So don't share, find yourself first, I know you will find yourself, and I know you will find love in the future... I love you, but we are killing ourselves inside...
...
-We're just going to go...
-Yes, let's just go...

Allison and Camaron kiss without a goodbye in words, but rather in the touch with their mouths.  He looks at her one last time and slides his hand over her face, she slides her hand over his face.  It was goodbye, it was happily ever after, it was Wendy and Peter's big step... Finally Pan decided to grow up, finally Wendy decided to bleed... He turns and leaves.  Allison leans on the balcony and looks at the moon and sheds her last tear of pain.  Her last memory of Camaron, was her kiss and a part of his face stained with her blood.

...

While all this was happening, there she was, Vanessa was sitting on the waiting bench, she listened to the doctors discuss the hospitalization.  And they could only hear her laughter, and music that was indecipherable.

-He told me that no one could be trusted, she told me that I would find peace, but I found worship.  HAHAHAHA!!!  Well he told me that "This is w

hy we can't have nice things."