Complexity

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Sohyun Pov

Now here I am. At Xinyu's house, just the two of us, working on an assignment for next week's presentation. I can't believe I agreed to her request to be her friend. But actually there's nothing wrong with being her friend at all. I just need to leave my trauma behind and give her a chance.

"Do you think... I have a chance? To be your friend?" Without thinking, I accepted her outstretched hand which I could see was now smiling widely.

"Park Sohyun"

"Zhou Xinyu" she looked very happy and honestly I liked seeing her smile.

"When are we going to do the assignment?" I had to make her believe it.

"Today is okay" she was very happy again where she immediately hugged me from the side. I who was not used to it just stayed silent and didn't hug her back. Maybe she realized that I didn't hug her back so she immediately let go.

"Sorry... I'm just... too excited" I just nodded and saw her fiddling with her cellphone.

"What are you doing?"

"Order a taxi for us. Is it okay if you work at my house?"

Looking back at Xinyu's figure next to me, made me wonder.

"What do you like about me?" she turned her head and closed her laptop.

"Your calm figure. I'm an extrovert, I definitely like to be friends with anyone. Seeing your unwavering figure in that very noisy class, made me want to know you better. And of course your guitar skills" did she see me?

"I saw when you played guitar in the warehouse. I also saw when your guitar was destroyed by them" so she saw it all.

"Do you feel sorry for me? So that's the reason you want to be friends?" she quickly shook her head.

"No. I do feel sorry after seeing how you were after your guitar was destroyed. But that's not the reason. I also don't know what memories are in that guitar that make you that sad"

"But these headphones, did you buy them for me on purpose?" she immediately shook her head hard.

"No. It's a gift from my sister. She will definitely be angry if she finds out that the gift for her sister is in someone else's hands" I chuckled hearing that until finally someone forced down Xinyu's room door. I panicked and immediately hid behind Xinyu.

"Oh, so that's why I never saw you wearing the headphones I gave you? You gave it to someone else?" Even her sister is beautiful?

"Well, it's already mine? Why are you angry?"

"Who did you give it to?" Xinyu immediately pointed at me who was hiding behind her.

"Ah... hello..." I said carefully.

"You? Xinyu gave it to you? You weren't the one who forced me to ask?" I shook my head.

"Well, it doesn't matter. Because you're beautiful, I don't mind" she said with a wink and then left the two of us.

"YAH!! DON'T YOU TRY TO TEMPT MY SOHYUN!"

"I don't care"

They were both equally strange. But Xinyu was stranger. 'My Sohyun'? She is so random.

"Oh... your face is red? Are you sick?"

This is because you are stupid

"Forget it. What about the assignment?" she looked at me from top to bottom.

What was she thinking?

"Forget it for the assignment. Heal your wounds first" she said while telling me to sit back down.

"I'm okay" she shook her head while taking a first aid kit from her cupboard. She didn't look at me at all and kept looking at the cupboard in front of him which was interesting.

"Don't keep saying 'it's okay'. I've told you that if you're scared, you can look for me or call me. You didn't call me that day. Why? Because you left your phone under the table. Thank goodness there was Dahyun who saw you being taken by them. If not? You could have died in that warehouse" I could hear her voice shaking a little as if he was crying.

She was crying

"Are you crying?" she shook her head and kept her back to me.

"Zhou Xinyu. Look at me" maybe I should keep making her cry. Her pouting face with her watery eyes was so cute to see. She was so adorable.

"You're worried about me?" she nodded while wiping her tears.

"Thank you"

"Thank you for worrying about me. You've been doing that since the beginning of school. You're weird, but I like your weirdness. Actually, you've crossed my mind a few times and I don't know why I thought of you. But believe me, this is the first time," I said very clearly which made her cry again.

"Why are you crying again? yaaah, Zhou Xinyu," I didn't know what to do because I'd never dealt with something like this before.

Maybe hugging her would be enough

I chose to hug her even though I wasn't sure if it would help her or not.

"You're weird... but that's what I like"

"You... like me?"

"You could say that" she let go of my hug and looked back at my wounds.

"Let me treat it first" she said while guiding me to sit back on the bed. She treated my wounds very carefully. She sometimes winced to herself when treating wounds that were still wet even though I didn't feel anything.

"Don't you feel any pain?" I just shook my head because that was the truth.

"You're also weird. You're bullied, you stay silent. You're treated unfairly, you stay silent. A wet wound like this, you don't feel any pain. What do you really feel"

"I don't feel anything. Since my father died, I haven't felt anything. The guitar they destroyed also belonged to my father. That was the last inheritance from my father and now it's gone without a trace" she paused for a moment to look at me. I knew what she was thinking so I just kept quiet.

"Sorry"

"It's okay" for the first time she was silent and didn't talk much like in class. As if she felt guilty.

"You don't need to feel guilty"

"I don't know your problem, but instead question it"

"Because you don't know, you don't need to feel guilty. So, look at me" she followed my words Where I Pulled her into my embrace for the second time.

"thank you" she just nodded and buried her head on my shoulder. We stayed in that position until someone opened Xinyu's room door.

I'm dead