RIDE

4 years before...

"Janky notebook" I said referring to the notebook I'm currently writing in..

My friend Dawn, that adorable fox bought me this notebook to write what I'm feeling and shit in it, probably because he knew I wanted to talk to someone, but most of the time didn't have anyone. Wait did I just call him adorable?.. I- I SWEAR IM NOT GAY! It's just, he's the only one that has ever been nice to me... and shows that he cares.. and is- ok Maybe I am gay? I- I don't know how this works, I'm just glad I can "talk" to someone about this I guess.. even if that is just myself. I'm going to visit my grandpa in the hospital, nobody else wanted to come.. I really hope he gets better.. he's the only one in the family who didn't see me as a piece of shit..
It's nice visiting grandpa, getting away from everyone, and being alone with him as we talked together. He'd tell me stories of what he did as a kid, and how he had fun when he was my age, it was actually quite funny how his stories contrasted with his current state, but that's aging for you I guess.. when I'm home I should probably finish my homework, I mean I just started freshman year so if I wanna pass i should try and do my work.

I took the bus to get to the hospital, I couldn't drive yet. As I came into the room I saw my grandpa watching the same movie as last time, some racing movie I couldn't exactly name it, but I do remember hearing the name "Ken miles" mentioned a lot.

I sat next to his bed, his aged, grey fur was the same as the last time I'd seen him.

"There's my favorite grandson! Glad you came to visit again." He said in response to me entering the room.

I chuckled a bit, "I'd always come visit you, but how's it going?" I asked him, hoping he'd be better.

"Being honest, I don't know how many years I have left Blake.. it won't be this or next year.. but it also won't be long..." he said, in a calming tone, trying to not make me too emotional..

I got a bit teary as he said this, and carefully wrapped my paws around him for a hug.

"I don't want you to go..."

"It'll be a bit until then.. don't worry for now.."

"Love you grandpa.."

"Love you too..."