I finished and dried off, not caring to do anything to protect my curls. That was too much work and my food was going to be here soon. I had timed it well enough to know how long it to. A routine. Even if it was the worst version of one.
I grabbed a pair of shorts and a baggy t-shirt, throwing both on. I didn't go back to my bed, instead I sat down on the floor next to my door. It was closed and sometimes I caught myself watching it, waiting for Jules's to knock. It was never going to happen. But a girl could dream. I sighed, resting my head against the wall. My phone buzzed and I sighed, picking it up. Lewis.
Lew ( Dad )
Hey kid. I know you're probably
going through a lot right now and I'm so sorry. But please. I need to knowthat you're alright.
yeah, i'm alive
Oh, thank God.
Seb said you didn't pick up his call?
i was sleeping
Got it. You've been sleeping a lot.
it's the only thing i have the energy
to doAh. Well, we have the weekend off.
Nico and I were going to come down and see you.
oh, okay
Unless you don't want that.
no, that's fine
Alright, please take care of yourself
until then. I love you, Lu.
I closed my phone, hearing the knock on the front door. I opened my door, fast walking to it. I just wanted to grab it and go but as I opened the door, it wasn't the delivery guy.
"Mako..."
I cleared my throat, not realizing how raw it was from crying every night and not talking. He just smiled.
"You're alive, then."
"Mhm."
He looked at me and I crossed my arms, feeling like I was being judged. It was the first time I had been aware that I might not look the best. I knew it but this was the first reaction I had to it.
"You weren't expecting me."
"I wouldn't have opened the door if I knew it was you."
"Ouch."
"Sorry.."
He shook his head, leaning against the frame. "Don't apologize. I'm not that hurt, I know you're going through a lot."
"Yeah, a lot."
"I just wanted to check on you."
"Well, you did that."
He sighed. "Lul-"
"If you could leave now, that would be great. I am just wanting my food and to go back to watching my movie."
I lied about the movie part. But I wasn't going to tell him that I was taking my food back to the bed I had been lying in for three weeks to eat until I couldn't force food down my throat anymore and then cry myself into another night of restless sleep.
"Right, yeah. I'll uh- see you later then."
I nodded and closed the door, forcing him to step back. I didn't move, keeping my eyes on the door. My food would be here soon and I didn't want to walk back to my room just to walk out again, two minutes later. But I also couldn't just stay in this room.
But something got the better of me and I turned around. Everything was exactly as it had been from that first night. I hadn't touched any of the boxes, just using whatever was already in my room. That wasn't what caught my eye. It was the box on the counter with a piece of paper next to it. I didn't see that earlier. My legs moved on their own, over to the counter. I picked up the paper, leaving the box.
Lily,
I gave this to Lewis. I had wanted to give it to you myself but... well. Here, my love. I did promise you this when you had finally grown up. Enjoy it and wear it with pride. You're going to carry on.
All my love, forever,
Jules
I crumbled the paper, throwing it across the room. Tears pushed at my eyes but I blinked them away, picking up the box with shaky hands. I flipped the lid and inside was the Bianchi family crest. On a silver chain. I dropped it, the pendant ringing as it hit the granite. I rubbed my hands on my shirt, trying to get rid of the feeling as I walked backward to my room. I slammed the door, ignoring the knock that meant my food had arrived.
All I could focus on was my breath and how I couldn't get it. My tears rushed and I sank to the floor, pulling my knees to my chest. It was real. This was the end.
________________________________________________________________________________
a/n: not much talking but good building for our lovely little eli. anyways, love it or don't :p
DU LIEST GERADE
⌞ always the angel, never a god ⌝
Fanfictioneilulia leclerc is the twin sister of the infamous charles leclerc. she has spent her entire life doing whatever to make sure that charles could the one of the best, her own talents and wants being pushed to the side. and so when he decides to conti...
*⌞ chapter thirty-eight : run together ⌝*
Beginne am Anfang