Ella's POV
Today in Glee, we were talking about invitationals. Mr Schue told us that our parents can attend" What if some parents can't attend?" I asked because of my parents' unproducible job. "What don't you have a mother or a father. What about an abusive parent? " Santana joked, and everyone laughed apart from Mercedes." I bet they are all in jail," Puck said. I turned to them. " I can tell a sick joke. Alcoholics don't get far unless they drink and drive. Let's go for a ride. And I hope. I crash and Die tonight, " I said straight to Santana's face as I saw tears blurring my vision. I then got up and ran to the toilet. I just sat on the counter. I then saw Mercedes coming in. " You shouldn't take things so serious. I don't think they mean any harm, " Mercedes said." But how could she have known?" I asked. Mercedes just shrugged her shoulders. " I am going home," I said as I got off the counter. " I will come with you," She replied. " No. It's fine. You don't have to be messed up in this mess. It's all my fault, " I said as I left the school.
As I walked out of my school, I saw my biological mother. " What do you want?" I asked her." Just to talk, " She said. I needed to get away from this" Fine. Just not here, " I said. We went to the park near school" What do you want to talk about" I said" Look I know what I have done in the past was wrong" She said" Yea, Why did you do it?" I asked." I was drunk most of the time. Or on drugs. I wasn't thinking straight." She said. " Great, so other than having an abuser-rapist in my genes, I also have drug and alcoholic," I said as I got up. " Sweetheart, please." She said, " DON'T CALL ME THAT. THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT CAN CALL ME THAT ARE MY PARENTS! AND YOU ARE NOT ONE OF THEM, " I shouted, then I ran away. I ran as far as I could until I realised I couldn't run anymore. I saw that I was at the station. I snuck up to the roof. I just stood on the edge . I heard my phone ringing. I saw that it was mom. I picked it up. " Ella, thank go. Where are you?" Mom said. I started to cry as I heard her voice. " Sweetheart, what's wrong?" I heard her say," T-They were so mean, " I choked out." Sweetheart, please tell me where you are." I heard mom say" We can come and get you. We can talk." I heard Mercedes voice" You told them, didn't you? " I said. I heard silence. That's what told me yes. I just hanged up. I just started to cry. I then heard the door open. " Ella," I heard Mandy's voice. " I don't want to talk," I said. " That's okay. I can just sit here with you. If you are up for it, " Mandy said. I just nodded. She sat down next to me. I looked up at the sky with the stars.
After a few minutes, " Did my mom call you?" I asked." Actually, your dad, " Mandy said." My biological mother came to talk to me," I said. " When?" She asked me." When I ran out of school, " I said," Why did you run out of school?" Mandy asked." They were making jokes up towards me about my biological parents, " I whispered." Why did you come here?" Mandy asked me." I-i-i ran for so long, and I couldn't run anymore, so I came up there. My mind won't stop, " I choked out." I shouldn't take things so seriously. I don't think they mean any harm, " I repeated what Mercedes told me. "But it would sicken you to if it happened to you and you had to relive every part. Here come the flashbacks and the panic attacks. How long does that shit last? I'm losing myself by the day see, I know you all think that I'm crazy. But the demons that show up at the foot of my bed are just demons from memories that fucked up my head. The night terror ain't nothing but a real bad dream. So quit being a goddamn drama queen" I said the last part to myself. I then stood up on the edge" I seal myself in a sound proof room so no one can hear how loud I scream. But you don't think it's as bad as it seems. Cause you never dealt with PTSD" I choked out." Ella" I heard mom's voice. I turned around. My back to the street" Don't come any closer" I said" Ella please" Mandy said. "Get away" I shouted. Mandy went next to mom" How much did you hear?" I asked her. She didn't answer. She heard everything. I shock my head as I started to cry." Ella no one thinks you are crazy" Mandy said" The people at my school do" I said. I stepped further away from them. I was one step away from falling. Making my brain stop." Ella please listen to me" Mom said. I looked at her. I saw her taking out a piece of paper from her jacket" What is that?" I asked" It's a letter I made for you 10 years ago when you were in the hospital. I never found the right time to give it to you" Mom said" Read it" I said. She opened it and started to read" My dearest Ella,
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By her, I was saved
قصص الهواة"In a world full of darkness and despair, I felt lost and broken beyond repair. Every day was a struggle, a constant fight, With no end in sight, just endless night. I had lost all faith, all hope was gone, My heart was shattered, my spirit withdraw...
