A happy family.
That's what I've always wanted since i was a kid. I've witness my own parents fight every day. Hindi ko nga matandaan kung na kwento ba nila kung paano sila nagkakilala..o baka hindi naman talaga nila nasabi sakin.
We were a family back then, kahit na hindi masaya ang pamilya namin, kontento na ako. As long as we're complete, i don't mind seeing them fight and shout everyday. I don't mind it at all. As long as we're a family.
A family that I've always wanted to be happy. Palagi ako nananalangin sa diyos na sana balang araw maging isang masayang pamilya na kami, yung hindi ko na sila nakikita na nag aaway. There are also times that i will see them laughing together and i swear it was the most beautiful scene for me.
I've learned that those happy moments we had won't last long. It will always be shortlived. The family that i tried to build. . . shattered on it's own. Maybe, it was fate. I couldn't accept the fact that my mother find someone new. The family that I longed for years is gone. Completely gone. Kaya sinabi ko sa sarili ko na kapag balang araw magkakaanak ako, bibigyan ko sya ng masaya at kompletong pamilya. Hindi ko ipaparanas sakanya na mag isa sya.
"Anak! Gumising ka na dyan," Saad ng nanay ko.
Napatingin ako kay mama at napaisip. Minsan ba naiisip nya ang mga memorya na buo pa kami? Na kahit papaano naging masaya naman ang pamilya namin kahit sandali.
I sighed and shrugged my thoughts. I should stop hoping for that happy family.
"Anong oras ba ang pasok mo?" Tanong nya sakin.
"Six fifty po," sagot ko at tumayo para maligo na.
After me and my father parted ways, and my mother finds someone else. . . I've been cold towards here. I hate it. No, I loathe her. I couldn't accept the fact. How could she be so happy right now? While all my life I've been miserable trying to fix our family. Hindi ko magawang sumaya, tuwing nakikita ko sila ng bago nyang asawa, mas lalong nanaig ang galit sa puso ko.
I never belived in love since then. I always think that people always betrayed each other, they cheat, lied and so on. People are all just the same. It's rare nowadays to find someone who will love you genuinely.
"Hope! Late ka na," Inirapan ako ni Lorelei.
Tumawa ako at tumingin sa cellphone ko. Hindi pa naman ako late, may five minutes pa ako para maglakad. Ika nga nila, it's better than late than never.
"Tignan mo oh, six fourty five pa lang naman." wika ko at ipinakita sakanya ang cellphone ko.
She rolled her eyes on me. "Seriously? Five minutes tayo maglalakad at pagdating natin sa room, tapos na ang first period."
"Edi tumakbo ka."
"Nah. Kung late ako dapat may kasama ako," Ngumisi sya at kumapit sa braso ko.
I sighed and we started fighting on our way. She was right, nang makarating kami sa room palabas na ang prof namin. Obviously, we ended on the detention for being late and got punished.
"This is all your fault, Hope! I don't get it why your name is Hope when you're obviously hopeless. Ugh!" She ranted and keep weeping the floor.
Poor, Lorelei.
Ngumisi ako sakanya at pinagpatuloy ang pagwawalis. Nang matapos kami ay recess na kaya dumiretso kami sa cafeteria.
"Ang init naman," reklamo ko.
Totoong mainit talaga sa cafeteria tuwing recess paano ba naman eh pinagsabay ang recess ng grade 11 at 12. Nakikita tuloy namin ang mga feeling superior na Grade 12.
"Oh my gosh! Yung crush ko!" tili ni Lorelei sa gilid ko, para syang uod na nilagyan ng asin.
"Shut up!" Tinakpan ko ang bibig nya dahil pinagtitinginan kami ng mga studyante na dumadaan.
Nahagip ng mata ko ang isang studyante. Wearing his headphones, a latest iphone on his hand, wearing his complete. Lorenzo Allejo, always got the attention of every students especially girls. He got the looks and this kind of aura that i couldn't explain whenever i sees him.
I looked away when i saw him look at my directions. My days always went like that. Bahay at school lang ang buhay ko. In simple words, boring.
My life is boring and color less. Kailan kaya ako makaka relate sa kanta ni Taylor Swift na Daylight?
I don't believe in love but i always wondered how it feels like to love and to be loved. To have someone who will be there for you in your darkest and hardest days. Someone who will cheer you up and support you in everything. Someone you wanted to be with, to growth with, to die with.
Not until everything changed. . .
He saved me. But also, destroys me.
Lorenzo Allejo, I'll never forget your name. I hope we never met again because if fate played us again, i'll ruin you real good.
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any predictions? sorry for being inactive here. stay safe ^^
