What Does It Mean?

The things that we've been through you'd think we had enough.
Heart burning a deep hole, a hole you can't stuff.
Filling it back up with amazing things
but once you get upset you end up pulling the string. The string that sets those amazing things to go away.
Even after us building up to keep negative things away , you always say. "I love you"
What does that even mean?
Does that mean you will stay with me to fix those crazy things?
What does that mean?
Does it mean you're just saying it just to say and get me to stay away from asking u over and over to stay?
What does that mean?
Are you just saying it without a means?A meaning to our relationship that we've built together.
Are you just doing it to keep me stained?
but you always say. "I love you"
Does that mean you truly feel me and feel what i got for you?
Does that mean that i don't have to cry every night in my room?
Does that mean we can stop going through what we been going through?
The heart aching and heart breaking
are you seeing the things you do?
But, you always say. "I love you"
At this point it's just words coming out your mouth.
Words you think that's making me happy even when ur not around .
When ur not around my heart still cold,
so cold even if u try to warm it up it's still froze.
But , you always say. "I love you"
Even after all the arguments, the gaslighting,and guilt trips.
You still find a way to blame me
just to take in . All the victim playing you've done
and it spun my way for u to blame.
And i always end up saying sorry to u.
But , you always say. "I love you