'Dos-kun is truly deceased now?' Nikolai squeezed the hand of his once dear friend tightly , distort , lifeless as melancholy winds continued to howl . Sigma watched holding his head low ;not daring to interrupt such a scene only forcing his head up to view the whispers from others that surrounded them. He glanced at Dazai who's monotone nature enticed his eye for it was neither a look of victory or despair but loss? Sigma couldn't comprehend this unlike before there was no understanding or connection between any of them, Nikolai stared shattered and Dazai just simply dazed at the blackhole of a sky that hummed above them .
Chuuya who forgotten about in the moment (oops) began to call out to Dazai but for Dazai in his state of daze his yells were inaudible. His somberly knelt down besides Nikolai comforting the clown his hand reaching out to stroke the separated arm of his ...blank... ; his thoughts halted why had he reached ,out why had comforted ,why does it ache? But before he could begin to reach an answer he felt a nudge from behind , Chuuya now inpatient as one could be looked down at Dazai with confusion and utter disgust for the genuine plea-ing look of loss in Dazai . It was something he and agency members had never experienced before - Dazais unmasked emotions.
'Oi Dazai' Chuuya spoke in annoy-ment ignorant to the tone of the scene laid out in front of him, Dazai didn't reply but glanced into him like a stranger.
'The hell are you doing?' 'We're done here, can't you see that irritation is gone now' Chuuya words trailed off in Dazais mind not even Chuuyas smugness could amuse him this time for in his state of consciousness he knew Chuuya could never understand him and Fyodor, but still with his guard up he mutters the name of his beloved while these thoughts entangled him .
'..fedya..' the name repeated its self several times leaving Chuuya dumbfounded , for who was this in front of him? Not the genius man who just took down the biggest threat to the world but one who was reflecting in remorse , for what reason Chuuya thought (just why?, was his presence not good enough for Dazai had there been some exchange between the two he doesn't know about..)
'Whatever' Chuuya snarled as flipped his head back to face the forwards he was expecting others to arrive, as while Dazai had been ignoring his calls he took it upon himself to call the agencies to announce the news to them. 'They should be here soon , or what is left of them' he spoke to himself as he knew Dazai was too long gone now to listen to a single word he says. They waited in silence backs turned and Dazais emotions blazing in sorrow ; still holding onto the pieces of his Fedya , slowly shifting his body leaving the arm behind he dug his hands into the fallen machine in front of him. Desperately clinging onto the hope the promise their love ; shivering slightly he began pulling out the body of his beloved . Fyodor looked as beautifully as he did the first time they met , the first fluttering of their hearts , the first-
Thud, the sound of large footsteps etching closer swiftly drew Sigma back into reality he turned his head to see a select group of agency members appearing from the horizon ; startled he scrambles to his feet in the direction of his fellow 'friends' tripping on his heels that were slightly wonky preventing him from walking effectively . Rushing over to Nikolais side for protection he dropped his hand onto Nikolais thigh giving him a squeeze to reassure the clown of their safety , 'stay put Dazai san must have a plan right?' Sigma whispered under his breath . He was tired they were all exhausted and could not deal with another scene breaking out ; Nikolais eyes shone for a split second at Sigma his mind became clear and peaceful . He was determined to at least save the last person he had dear to him, Sigma.
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OKAY, ELLO MIMI HERE! Originally I had this chapter as a 1000+ word thing bc thats how long this particular scenes takes but for the sake of Wattpads format I thought it would be better to split the chapter in half (although it's still very long) lol. When I publish the story on ao3 this will all be 1 chapter instead of getting split!
Hope you like this silly au
- mimi signing off on the 2/25/24
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"Much to do with love but more with hate" | FYOZAI
FanfictionFyozai & Siglai (ships)! + soukoku angst Au where sigma is alive (yippee) and that fyodors death at the end of the prison arc is all part of 'their' (fyodor and dazais) plan. Will be continued on ao3 but gonne be on here too (If theres a lack of upd...
