Samuel's Journal Entries

2/24/2024 (Saturday)

Hi there. I'm Samuel. I am 15 years old as of writing this, and I am in my sophomore year of high school. I am an artist and I like to draw fanart of FNAF and Scream 1996. My celebrity crush is Matthew Lillard. I blame the FNAF movie for that one. Thanks, Scott Cawthon. Anyway, this is where I plan to write some of my silly thoughts and problems to cope or whatever. If you'd like, you can stay. Or not, that's your decision. I will not be mad if you leave, I pinky promise ^_^

So, today I got a fucking cold. I'm gonna off myself (joking.) Tomorrow is my best friend LM's birthday party. (Oh by the way, I'll be referring to real people I know as their initials in case they don't want their name out on the internet.) For her birthday, she's having her party at an axe throwing place. I really hope my cold is gone by 4PM tomorrow because I wanna be there for her birthday. And because I've never thrown axes before. My partner, RR, is going to be there. I never get to see them anymore because their parents don't want us dating. Their parents are super religious and don't like the idea of their child to be dating someone, let alone a transgender guy. It really blows. I love RR so much, and they don't realize how much I love them. They are my everything. They are my favorite person ever. I love them more than my 3 cats. That is a lot of love, if you didn't know.

I just recently went to Hershey, PA and Washington D.C. I got a funny picture in front of the capitol. Hershey was a way cooler city though. I got to go to Hershey's Chocolate World, where I made my own chocolate bar and learned some history about the company. Did you know that the strip of paper in a Hershey's Kiss is called a plume? Yeah, I didn't either until a few days ago. 

Anyway, this cold is kicking my ASS. I'm kind of hoping I'm still sick by Monday because there's this guy at my school who just happens to be in my grade AND in a lot of my classes who I hate with a burning passion. He creeps me out too. First, I'll tell you why I hate him. I hate him because he is extremely rude, loud, annoying, disrespectful, and touches other people and their belongings without asking. He creeps me out because he constantly stares at me with a weird smile on his face and gets really close to me. Multiple of my friends have told me that they think he likes me. Which I think is horrible because he looks and IS repulsive. His whole being is repulsive. I think he is only an individual a mother could love. I'm sorry, I know that sounds really mean and awful, but if you met DR, you'd feel the same way too. You'll probably hear me complain about DR a LOT. 

I'm so tired. Being sick really kicks my ass. So bad. Anyway, the Scream hyperfixation got so bad I started writing a fanfic about Stu Macher from the first movie on my burner wattpad account. For those of you who know me in real life reading this... please don't try to find it. I'll report you to the shadow government if you do ^_^ But yeah, I'm hoping I actually stay ill long enough to even finish the fic. I'll update if I can remember to lol. 

Okay, that's all for today. Thanks for reading if you got this far. 

                                                                                                        -Samuel