Crying in front of people, close friend, or a stranger isn't my thing. It will never be my thing. Most of the time, I would rather stay and act still kesa umiyak at mag mukang weak sa harapan nila. They might see me in the verge of crying but they will never see me crying.
It's hard for me to cry in front of people... but when I'm all alone? I will definitely cry even at the smallest thing.
"It's okay kaya hayaan mo na. Baka hindi talaga para sa iyo. Huwag mo nang ipilitin. Kung para sa iyo, para sa iyo 'yon," sabi ni mommy.
"But I worked so hard for that!" Naiinis na sabi ko.
Walang ibang may kasalanan sa nangyari kundi ako kaya mas naiinis ako sa sarili ko.
"Oh, anong gagawin ko? E wala na. Tapos na. May magagawa pa ba ako? It's your fault."
I ended the call with my mom dahil ayokong makipag talo, alam ko naman na ako ang may kasalanan pero hindi ko pa rin mapigilan magalit sa lahat.
It's my fault and I hate everything.
Pagkatapos kong tumulala ay saka ko napagpasyahan na bumalik sa study table ko para mag gawa ng email para sa St. Leonidas.
Good day, Leonidas!
How's your day? I hope you are doing well. My morning is not good as I have realized that I accidentally missed my SCET last January 28, waiting for a confirmation email about my application since mines was incomplete. I thought I have to wait for an email, then I realized that I missed it after I open my portal.
I am from Laguna but I chose to take my SCET in Manila, however, can I take my exam on SLIU-Laguna since they still have a schedule this February.
I hope you can reply to my email as soon as possible. I'll try to contact the admission through landline, too.
This is my last hope and logical solution to my situation right now. Just like any other Leonidas aspiring student, I also worked hard and studied to get into St. Leonidas International University.
I hope you can reply to my email and give me an answer if I can still do something about it or just accept my fate.
Thank you so much! I hope you are well.
"If it is meant to be, it will happen no matter what happens," bulong ko sa sarili ko habang hinihintay ang results ng winner sa quiz bee.
Nanonood lang ako ngayon dahil hindi naman pwede mag participate ang officer ng English Club.
"Pres," rining kong tawag kaya mabilis naman akong lumingon para hanapin kung saan 'yon nanggaling.
"Tawag ka ni Ma'am Rae sa library."
"Bakit naman?" Seryosong tanong ko.
"Naka simangot agad? Ewan... parang kasalanan ko na naman," bulong niya. Ewan ko anong pinagsasabi niya.
Tumayo na lang ako at hinabilinan ang ilang officers dito. I walked towards the school entrance at naka salubong ko ang ilang teachers at binati sila ng mahina.
"President pala si Miranda ng English Club," rinig ko sa di kalayuan.
Hindi ba halata? Kita ng President naka lagay sa likod ng Polo Shirt ko.
Hindi ko rin alam bakit naiinis ako sa lahat kaya naman binilisan ko na lang ang paglalakad patungo sa Library.
"Bakit po?" Agad na tanong ko kay Ma'am Rae na ngayon ay nakasimangot na rin.
"Anong handle mo? Bakit hindi pa kayo nagsisimula?" Agad na tanong niya. "Yung sa senior high, nasan na ang mga participants doon? Diba ikaw nag handle ng senior high? Nasan?!"
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