My Life Ig Idk Read If U Want

Regrets

I have many regrets in life and I'm 14 this year turning 15 on Christmas eve.

The biggest regret was accidentally killing my hamster named Luna I loved her a lot and showered her with a lot of food and played with her every day she died on my brother's birthday 11/12/21 she was my favourite pet I had many pets in my life most of them were exotic type of pets like 2 flying squirrels and 10 rainbow crabs(yes they r a real thing they r blue n red) a weird big bird a few more mini birds very random 2-4 terrapins or so and a beta fish most of them randomly died oh and a baby chicks that died early age

The 10 rainbow crabs died when my family went out to Disney land in China(the area where COVID started forgot the name like right before COVID started)and my grandma was left to take care of them and they all managed to die I still think my grandma ate them...

My beta fish my a pretty blue n red a bit of black and when I was in school my one brothers decided to snap my fish in half... And I was very upset I couldn't find my beta fish inside the fish bowl when I came home didn't know what happened till I asked my helper what happened and after a while my helper showed me fished snapped in two I cried for a while n got scared of seeing another fish and I still am scared of fish.

The pets I had r not in sequence since my memory is not good.

I had a few terrapins n I still remember the last one I had my dad brought me n my terrapin to a idk near forest area near the highway and set it free in the mini river that's the last terrapin I remember and the last one I had.

I remember the chick my dad brought 3 eggs home one day and we were so excited it was last year aswell and we built the incubator quickly since the eggs needed warmth and we had to fill the bottom with water and what not and we hatched only one egg the other two had nothing and so we had this baby chick for a while and when I was in school my brother or someone at home called and told me that it died and that it drowned after jumping out of the mini cardboard box we put it in for warmth we supplied it with food n water aswell but it started jumping and it jumped out n drowned itself...

And now my last 2 pets I remember dearly and sadly Luna and Lunie.

Luna died on 11/12/21 in a condo I was staying in for a while cus my mom bought it n is now renting out to people I had this ball where there were no air holes in n I left my dear Luna in there for an hour on accident after getting distracted by one of my brothers playing the PS4 and I was to late when I realised I cried for days and still cry sometimes now I don't know what's on the other side of life if there's such thing as heaven or hell or just nothing or reincarnation I just hope if she was reincarnated she is happy.

Lunie died last year I don't know the exact date but it was a week or two before school holidays(if u know school holidays in Singapore start from near end October to December I think I don't remember) and we still don't know how she died in that way like when I went to greet Lunie in the morning like usual I found her dead body my brother was there before me he wakes up at 5:00am just to play games I wake up around 5 to get ready for school I live quite far from my school and we found her intestines spilling out... We still don't know what caused this.

I am now still skeptical on getting a pet fearing for the worst.