this is more of a vent one.. this gets into topics of anger and perfection can't forget hatred. if you need a reference to what i'm trying to visualize, look at the picture.
anyway...
SMG4's pov:
I HATE HIM. I HATE HIM AND HIS STUPID GIRLFRIEND.
FIRST OFF, MAKING FUN OF MY INTERESTS?! THEN GETTING A BOYFRIEND WITHOUT EVEN TELLING ME!?
IM SO ANGRY! I CANT WITH THEM ANYMORE! I CANNOT WITH HIM AND HER! YES, HAPPY FOR YOU TO GET A BOYFRIEND, BUT YOURE PROBABLY NEVER GONNA SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN?!
YOU'RE GOING TO A DIFFERENT HIGH SCHOOL.
HE IS TOO.
AT LEAST I SEE HIM AT TAEKWONDO. YOU SEE HIM ONLY AT SCHOOL.
I CANNOT WITH YOU. I CANNOT WITH EVERYONE OF YOU!
take a deep breath... you'll be fine...
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okay, now that i've calmed down... i honestly feel like some things need to be perfect.
almost the whole school day... i just repeat.. "it's gotta be perfect" even if it doesn't have to be.
perfection is something i strive.
perfection is something i want.
i will never be perfect.
i will never be the perfectionist i should be.
I WANT TO BE PERFECT!
WHY CANT I BE PERFECT?!
WHY. CANT. I. BE. PERFECT!!!
I NEED TO BE PERFECT!
YOU, THE READER, WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND!
I NEED TO BE PERFECT FOR YOU, THE READER. THE FOLLOWER..
I NEED TO BE PERFECT!!!
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the end of this...
sorry it got deep y'all... i just needed to get this out of my head before it kills me inside.
(final word count: 238)
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Characters representing me
Humorexactly title don't expect these to surpass 500 words. might depending on the occasion. main characters representing me: SMG3 Hayley Williams (my headcannoned version you idiots 😒) Taylor York (same as last one 😒😒) and a few others depending on...
