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by RisVelvet

by RisVelvet

"Bakit hindi mo sabihin sa babaeng 'yun na hindi naman talaga kayo kasal, na hindi mo naman talaga pina registered ang kasal niyo dahil hindi mo s'ya mahal!"

I was hiding here at the corner, habang nakikinig sa sinasabi ng babaeng hindi ko kilala. I saw her once, sa birthday ng asaw ko pero bigla nalang din s'yang nawala na parang bula.

"Tell me, mahal mo na ba s'ya? Kaya di mo masabi sa kanya ang totoo?" rinig kung tanong ulit ng babae.

I couldn't hear a single word from my husband. I couldn't see his expression either because he was facing back from me.

"Or baka naman, gusto mo lang s'yang manatili sa tabi mo because you can fuck her whenever you want?!"

Napa pikit nalang ako. Hindi ko maintidihan ang nararamdaman ko sa mga oras na'to. Galit ako at nasasaktan, pero wala akung magawa dahil ginusto ko din naman ang lahat ng 'to.

Kasalanan ko din naman na nahulog ako sa kanya. Kaya wala akung karapan na magalit.

I wipe my tears away bago ko ihakbang ang mga paa ko. Hindi na ako tumingin sa kanila. I also covered my ears para wala na akung marinig na masasakit na salita galing sa babaeng hindi ko kilala.

With a heavy heart, I sat at the passenger seat. As I started the engine, a sense of determination washed over me. I knew I had to keep moving forward, no matter how difficult the journey ahead may be, specially now that i have a baby growing inside me.

"Don't worry, my baby," I whispered, placing a gentle hand on my growing belly. "Even though I can't give you a complete family, I promise you that I will do everything I can to give you the best life."

With tears still streaming down my face, I took a deep breath and wiped them away. I refused to let the pain and heartache consume me. Kailangan kung maging matatag para sa baby ko. I had a responsibility now, not just to myself, but to the life growing inside me.

I drove away the car, para makarating agad sa bahay. Kailangan ko pa kasing mag impake. Mag iiwan nalang din ako ng notes, para hindi na niya ako hanapin pa. Hindi na rin naman kailang ng divorce paper dahil hindi naman pala naka registered ang kasal namin.

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HABANG nag iimpake, memories of our bedroom flooded my mind. Bawat sulok, ay naglalaman ng mga sandaling puno ng kasiyahan. The scent of our bedroom reminded me of nights spent cuddling and sharing sweet kisses, sweet laughters and happiness.

As I looked around, my eyes suddenly caught sight of our picture. I stood up and slowly picked up the picture frame. I stared at it, and i smiled. Ito kasi 'yung unang picture na kuha namin. Medyo napilitan pa kami nung time nayun.

I went back to what I was doing, and I decided to bring the picture with me, just incase, na kapag lumaki na ang anak namin at mag hanap ng tatay may ipapakita ako.

After everything, I wrote a letter before going downstairs with my luggage. As I walked through the living room, I couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness. The couch, where we had cuddled and watched movies, now felt empty and lonely.

"Goodbye," I whispered, my voice filled with a mix of sadness and nostalgia as I looked around the house one last time. This house has become my favorite place, a sanctuary where countless memories were made. But now, it will become a memory itself, a memory that I will never forget, and will cherish forever.

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