DEMXN AT HEART

CHAPTER ONE : A Little piece of sky

I can't do this anymore...

I'm so pathetic.

I give everyone around me everything I have and never have anything left for myself.

I try to be a better version of me but in the end I always mess things up.

I hate it...

I hate this feeling.

I know I can't change myself,I know I can't be perfect and I know I can never have everything I want for myself, but does that really mean I deserve to go through all that I am going through?

I get blamed for any silly and little mistake,I get blamed for everything bad that happens ...Even when I am not around.

I have to sit down and listen to people tell me I'm useless and don't do anything about it,and yet I do most of the work under this roof.I have to listen in silence,and keep my mouth shut as they lecture me about how disrespectful I can get when I accidentally let out the pain and anger I have held in for all the past seventeen years of my life.

They just don't understand me...

They never will.

No one will.

"I'm sorry.."

Its all I say...it's all I can say, because if I try to defend myself it leads me down the pits of hell.

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As the cold breeze brushes through my hair and past me,I couldn't help but shiver a bit.

"I don't even deserve it.."I said to myself as I fiddled with the necklace that was now placed in my hands,the necklace was made out of red beads and my name was carved in white.It was a gift given by my mother,she said it held an important meaning, though she never told me what exactly that was.I sighed as I remembered that night...

FLASHBACK

"Mom look!"The 7 year old me said excitedly,as I looked out the window of our apartment,a sparkle in my eyes as I saw the fireworks go off in the pitch black sky.

My mom just chuckled and smiled as she saw how excited it made me but she gently said,"I know sweetheart,but now it's time to go to bed okay?"She smiled softly but I frowned at that.

"Why can't we go out and see more?,everyone else is doing that..."I mumbled sadly,she never let me go out,she always kept me in for some unknown reason,she said it was for my own safety and protection but I never believed any of that,it felt like all she really wanted was for me to never go out and see the world and how it really was,that's why I had no friends...I never got the chance to make any,and I doubt anyone would have ever wanted to be friends with me,most kids mocked my sense of fashion and clothing,and basically everything I did.

"Because I said so Arami,it's dangerous out there.."She answered back.

I pouted and sat on my bed with crossed arms,causing her to sigh and walk over to my bed before sitting next to me,to which I got up and walked over to the window as if to avoid her,"Arami..I'm only trying to protect you.. because I love you so much okay?"She sighed and spoke as she got up again and walked behind me.

Suddenly I felt something cold wrap around my neck and when I looked down I noticed a red necklace made out of beads,I saw how the letters formed into my name,but I remained silent as I waited for her to continue speaking.

"And when you're old enough,I'm sure you'll figure out the reason I'm doing this...so..just ..please trust me Ara.."She said and pulled me into a hug to which I didn't return, but i nodded.

"Arami promise me one thing"She spoke again,but there was a sense of seriousness in her voice this time."Never take this necklace off,"

My brows furrowed at her words but the dark gaze of seriousness stopped me from daring to ask her why that was,so I just nodded in return and let out a little smile."Okay mommy"I said softly."Just don't hide anything from me"

"Ever..."

END OF FLASHBACK

I scoffed as i gazed at the necklace that layed in my palm,I sighed and shook my head before I looked up for a moment,and as I was about to put it around my neck,I felt someone snatch it out of my hand and run away,I gasped at this and I tried to yell for the thief to stop but before I could do anything i felt the ground beneath me shake causing me stumble and drop to the ground,my eyes shutting closed as I made an impact with the floor.

"What the hell.."I mumbled to myself as I opened my eyes,the sky was now pitch black,and my surroundings were blurred but as I stood up,images flooded and span around me,but why did these images seem and feel more like...memories.

"Where am I.."I spoke to myself,and before I knew it the images stopped and it was as if I got sucked into a memory and as my body got pulled off the ground I got pulled quickly and due to this,I landed on my face when I got dropped off.

I groaned and sat up,my body still on the ground.From the back of my mind I could see a man chasing and yelling after the thief that stole my necklace,it was as if I was having a vision,and in that vision the man reclaimed my necklace but before he knew it he was in the same situation as me and as my vision ended he was Infront of me,standing on the ground perfectly with a look of shock on his face before his Gaze landed on me.

As I looked up at him,millions of thoughts flew around in my mind and I couldn't help but stay stiff in shock,my body seemly cold and frozen.

But even so,even though I was in a daze,even though my surroundings were blurred out,he was the only thing clear to me.

There was no one else around us,everything was quiet and empty..

The only thing I saw there and then

Was him.

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