please wait for me

chap 1 - you're grieving, dash

hey what's up - if you follow me bc of my other fic then... this is a totally different fandom so if you don't like my little pony then look away...

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Rainbow kicked the pebbles at her feet, watching the few stones fly across the pavement in the moonlight. Her hands shoved in her pockets, tears streaming down her face, a lump in her throat she couldn't swallow. She had no idea what time it was, a dead phone in her hand and an empty driveway in front of her was all she had, accompanied by the sound of crickets chirping from the fields around her. She stopped in her tracks, looking up at the full moon that shone overhead. It was too blurry for her to see its true beauty, the tears in her eyes forcing the light to go all different directions through her vision.

Looking off to the side of the path, she threw her phone down in the grass and slumped to the ground. Her head fell into her hands as her sobbing grew heavier. It was one of those silent cries, unbelievably painful, like everything was trapped inside and it just wouldn't come out. Salty tears ran down her cheeks and arms, dripping onto her shorts like drops of dew. She clutched the fabric of her shirt in her hands, wiping away the sweat and tears that had accumulated, but also an attempt at grounding herself. One of those shaky breaths racked her body as she tried to draw it in.

Applejack's driveway-or rather, an extremely unnecessary long path that led up to her house- was a place that Rainbow was familiar with. The amount of days she had spent treading this path, whether it was excitedly running up to Applejack's door, or storming off down the gravel in a fit of rage, all of them added up to a nostalgic feeling she experienced every time the sun set and the chirping crickets broke the silence of the farmland. Fields surrounded her, grass taller than her grew wildly behind the white fences, cows and other livestock lived beyond the fields in the worn down barn that she recalls spending most of her summer in.

Unfortunately, today was not one of those days that Rainbow spent frolicking through the fields. Oh how she missed last summer, before everything went wrong- back when popsicle juice ran down her arms, full of storytelling and muddied converse, the smell of sunscreen and the sound of cicadas. Back when her favorite person was always along side her, the freckled blondie who never turned down a challenge, when their days were spent chasing each other down and their nights spent stargazing under the quiet sky. Today, Rainbow Dash only saw those times as a distant memory, something that could never be achieved again. Something that was lost when she lost a part of her- something she could never get back.

All she wanted was to talk to Applejack. She had tried her usual routine of knocking on her bedroom window, crouching by the window sill and hoping she would hear. Usually, whenever Rainbow came to her window late at night, she either wanted a hug or to fuck, but this time she just wanted Applejack to hear her out. She knew she had fucked up big time, and Applejack is usually lenient on listening when Rainbow tries to apologize, but this was the first time she had slammed the window shut and drawn the curtains. Rainbow Dash wasn't much of a crier either, and that was one of those moments when the tears came bursting through.

She squeezed her eyes shut when all she could think about was the look on Applejack's face. She didn't know what was worse- the sheer rage that shone in her green eyes just now, staring straight into her own, or the disappointed glare that she had given her in the hallway earlier that day. Applejack was a tough one. Her high spirits and stubborn attitude were only a few characteristics that made her... Applejack. Some may describe her as strong, straightforward, and honest, adjectives that might not mean much to a stranger. But to Rainbow Dash, that's what made Applejack hers. She noticed things some might never see. Like the way her eyes glisten when she talks about her family, and how her country accent heightens when she gets pissed. But she especially notices the way Applejack looks at her, the way her gaze slightly softens and her voice gets just a little quieter when she talks to Rainbow up close.