Do You Get Deja Vu Too?

𝟬𝟵. 𝗔𝗹𝗹 𝗜 𝗪𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗪𝗮𝘀 𝗬𝗼𝘂

" No, I do like you! And someday I'm going to love you, and we'll get married, have 10 kids and teach them how to dream. " He exclaimed.

( A/N: Wth did I write 5 months ago lmao, what is this qsdfghjklqwaersdtfguyhijokozsdxfcgvbjhnmk )

I could feel my face flush burning red at the thought of spending all my life with the boy who means the most to me. " I do! " I accidentally blurted out loud.

" Iz, I'm pretty sure it's illegal for two 13 year olds to wed and I don't think we can afford housing without a job. How would I pay for our Honeymoon and what abo- "

Without giving it much thought, I pressed my lips against his soft ones. I knew this was the only to get Harry to shut up before he got into detail about taxes or what we would name our future children. He kissed me back and ended up we making out for a while until the warning bell rang and we realized we were late for History.... Maybe we can make out again during detention?

Even then, I haven't yet received a confirmation from Harry on what we are now. There's no way I'm getting played in a situationship. Is this even fair to me?

~ later on that day ~

" Hey Isabel! " James cheerily greeted me as he passed by me in the hallway.

" Hey James. " I sluggishly greeted back.

" I can tell you're not very fond of me, but can't we at least be friends for now. " He suggested, surprisingly in a lighthearted, formal tone.

" How can we be friends when you mock Harry all the time? " I harshly pointed out.

" Well Haz and I have never really gotten along in the first place. Don't allow your boyfriend to hold us back from being friends. "

I fiercely objected right within a mere instant." He's not my boyfriend! "

" Wait, he isn't? That's good to know." James asked with the widest eyes, completely stunned by my so-called 'mind-blowing' response. Geez, does everyone at this school assume Harry and I are something more? Then again, I can't blame my peers at all, considering I could've sworn we were something more...

" So James, what do you want? " I hastily rolled my eyes, both impatient and eager to head to my next class already instead of 'willingly' standing here making small-talk with the school's grade A asshole.

" Isabel De La Cruz, I like you. "

" Oh James, that's a good one. You're hilarious, have you ever thought of being a comedian? " I walked away laughing, under the assumption that what James had confessed was actually just a joke. How come I can get James to jokingly confess his 'feelings' for me, but my own best friend needs time to think about whether he wants to be in a romantic relationship with me? Life was good, but now it sucks again. All I want is Harry's love. Is all I want too much to ask?

Despite it being 11 am on a school day in literal school, I plugged in my earphones and tuned into Spotify. I scrolled through my daily 'go to songs' playlist and begun to play my favorite Paramore song 'All I Wanted' from their album 'Brand New Eyes'. The pop-punk, heartbreak anthem was naturally the mood today; All I wanted was you indeed.

~ Harry's POV ~

It's not that I meant to be a complete jerk, but it sure started to seem like I'm playing the role of one. I just have a bad feeling about what could go down if Isabel and I become something more than just friends. It's something that won't be easily repaired and I fear it could cause a falling out in the future.

The road love walks on is a fragile pavement, frequently rocky and likely to trip over. I guess that's why people fall in love... perhaps they fall in too deep into the mantle. Too deep to the point that they're unable to move forward afterwards.

In general, I don't trust myself with handling anyone's heart- and by that, I mean the affection, emotions and hurt that comes along with it. I wouldn't want to be the blame, but I'm very much capable of being so. 

That's what you get when you let your heart win, and I'm not sure whether I'd like to be a part of that. 

A/N: This chapter was primarily pre-written from the OG Deja Vu, so if you were getting deja vu, that's why 😅 To be fair, so was the last chapter-

If Harry's part in this chapter felt so short, I apologize. I'm on writer's block and I feel like what needs to be said for this particular chapter is already well said. There aren't many chapters in this 2018 timeframe.... only ONE MORE. Yeah, it's crazy how the time is about to fly to 2020 by chapter 11. Now I must work on the 2020 interlude for this book. Our favorite year, right?... In an alternate universe where covid and lockdown was nonexistent 💀