The game starts! (The amazing digital circus x male reader)

4. It's okay

Y/n pov

Well,this is awkward. I have no idea what to do other than walking in silence.

Y/n:So...do you have any questions?

Pomni:Do you know where the exit is?

Y/n:No...

Pomni:Then i don't have anything else i want to know

Y/n: Alright... Hey, you freaked out that you forgot your name but didn't freak out for not remembering your entire life?

Pomni:Wait...

Y/n:Oh no

Pomni:I CAN'T REMEMBER MY LIFE

Fuck. I couldn't keep my mouth shut. I'll just try to calm her down... How? No hugs,she doesn't seem enjoying touch, especially from someone she just met today. Uhhh.

Y/n: Hey hey,not only you,everyone here forgot everything

It doesn't work at all. I look at her freaked out like she's gonna snap in any second. Good job Y/n.

Y/n:You know, it's weird that we can't remember our past but know the headset thing, and that we have another life

Pomni:I-i guess you're right... it's really...weird...

Y/n: I'm really questioning what stupid reason we had to put the headsets on

Pomni:I don't know, I just want to get out of here

Y/n:Heh...same honestly. If you think that you hate this place from the first day then think about me, I've been here for...ugh,i lost track of time

Pomni: You've been here for long?

Y/n: You have no idea

Pomni:Oh, I'm sorry to hear that

Y/n: It's okay,i mean,could have been worse,like imaginate if it weren't others here like me. I would have been probably crazy here if it weren't for them, even for Jax

Pomni:I guess having others here with you helps a bit

Y/n: Yeah, it really does...but that doesn't mean that i won't break one day

Pomni: What do you mean?

Y/n: I'm getting tired,maybe if i get abstracted I'll finally have peace. I see it as a way to escape, even tough we don't know what happens to the ones that get abstracted and it might seem scary, for now I can't see another solution

Pomni:...

She looks at me with such sad eyes. I said too much. Just left my thoughts go out my mouth.

Y/n: Sorry, i said too much haha

Pomni:N-no, it's fine,i was thinking about what you said, and i kind of understand your point of view

Y/n:Oh, I'm glad. But i feel like I can't just give up yet. Maybe like you said,it can be an exit. I just hope that i won't go crazy until then

Pomni:Haha same

Y/n:Hey,you saw that clown

Pomni: The abstracted one?

Y/n:Yes,Kaufmo, maybe he had gone crazy because he was keeping everything to himself. I don't like that people do that but i understand them. I can't imagine myself to just let my thoughts talk out loud. But still,maybe i wasn't that close with that guy, but i miss him...maybe if I tried to be more friendly with him and made him feel safe to tell me his problems none of these would've happened

Pomni: Don't think it's your fault, it's not

Y/n:I don't want to see anyone else have the same fate,it happened too much already

Pomni:Do you think I'll get abstracted?

Y/n:I hope not

Pomni:The truth, not your hopes

Y/n:I won't let this happen

Pomni:What?

Y/n:I won't let you get abstracted or anything bad to happen to you