sitting on my hands
as the pressure mounts
my head is about to explode
yet youre still perfectly fine
how did i mess it up so badly?
i know the script by heart
but i can never seem to follow it
when it comes to everyone else so naturally
try to be like you
try to be so youll like me
but i fumble every time
ive taught myself how to catch the ball
but as soon as you turn around i drop it
laughing too loud
my head hurts
and im afraid ill never get the joke
or worse, ill become the joke
so i stay here, paralyzed
sitting on my hands
until its all over
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date written: november 18, 2023
