𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐄 , 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐲

12 , seasons

not proof read idek what i wrote

arlecchino

y/n
hey

can we talk?

arlecchino
ofc

whats up?

y/n
i dont think i ever thanked u for the drinks 😭

and thank u for keeping me company and giving me advice

arlecchino
oh girl 😭 dont worry that wasnt much !

i enjoyed talking to u

i also heard from childe u texted him so thank u for that

y/n
LMAO ofc its no problem

arlecchino
anyways

what did u wanna talk to me about?

y/n
oh yeah

ok so ur good at giving relationship advice right

arlecchino
id say i do

y/n
great ok

i just need to know if what im doing is reasonable bc idek what im doing anymore

arlecchino
ofc

whats up?

y/n
so i have an ex and his name is wriothesley right

arlecchino
mhm

u mentioned him the other day

y/n
oh wtf

arlecchino
yeah 😭

u said how u hated him?

y/n
YEAH OK SO

a month ago he broke up w me

and before that he asked for a break to focus on himself and i respected that bc thats totally fine

and we went no contact

and then he sends me a msg saying "lets break up" and he blocked me on literally almost everything

he didnt even give an explanation why he ended things he just said that and blocked me

arlecchino
what the fuck

i understand if he had his reasons to do that but he didnt say anything?

y/n
literally nothing

and so a month later he texted me and i was like wtf bc whys he messaging me

arlecchino
what did he want from u 💀

y/n
he said he broke up w me so i could focus on
school

arlecchino
not that excuse gn

y/n
RIGHT I WAS SO ANNOYED

LIKE YOU DID ALL THAT AND SAID NOTHING JUST FOR ME TO FOCUS ON SCHOOL BE FR

and when i was drunk

i drunk texted him and he drove me back to my dorm

he let me sleep in his car for like two hours to sober up bc he knows i hate being drunk

arlecchino
im ngl thats sweet

tbh i dont think hes over u

y/n
he isnt

he keeps telling me hes still in love w me and that he misses me but idk anymore

he told me he wasnt in a good place mentally and he always needed my attention and thatd pull me away from my studies

and he knew that if he didnt block me id fight for us and itd distract me even more

i think thats rly nice of him and i want to forgive him but i still cant get over how badly that fucked me up

arlecchino
thats completely okay

you dont have to forgive him yet

in your perspective what he did was horrible and you didnt get an explanation until a month later. its totally okay to feel the way you do

youre not obliged to forgive him yet and you should take things at your own pace

y/n
thank you 🙁

im so confused rn bc i want to forgive him and i want to talk to him again but it feels different

and like he broke up w me in my second year of uni and he said he was doing it for my education

i was doing a little bad in my classes while we were dating but it wasnt bc of him i just dk anymore

and i cant bring myself to talk to him like that again

im sorry for dumping all of this on you

arlecchino
please dont apologize

i swear its okay

i know we're not that close but i'll always be here to listen to you if you ever need to talk :)

y/n
thank u i love u sm arlecchino ☹️

arlecchino
i love you too y/n 🫶

projecting in my fic again 🙁 (when am i not)