07/12/2023
Dear Dad,
Today I especially miss you, today it's hitting me hard that you never got to know me truly.
You never got to be in the car woth me when I finally got my drivers license.
You never got to see me graduate high school, or be there when I moved into my college dorm.
You never got to hear me sing/rap my heart out, I still think of you when the songs stay and resepct comes on. Can't help but smile when they do come on.
Sometimes I forget your truly gone and the realization sucks.
I think about all the things we can never be able to do, like you walking me down the aisle on my wedding day.
Not being able to meet my possible future kids.
Not there when I moved out for the first time.
You would never know who I ended up with, though part of me hopes you are watching me or at least are caught up on how things are here.
I hope you are proud of me.
I've been through so much these last few years and have missed you terribly, but I know you are on your own journey that we can't quite understand yet.
I just hope you know I love you and I hope I get the chance to have you as my dad again, but we'll do it right next time.
I vowel to never make that same mistake, I will be the change.
I accept the hardships and will try my hardest to overcome them all.
I will make you proud.
~ With love,
Your daughter
