I wanted to read a good book but all I could think of is sex.
Back then, I think it is a sin. When I was in high school, I believed that sex is only for married couples because it is sacred. It's a special tie with love.
But now that I experienced it myself my perception change. Yes. Siguro nagbago lang ang paniniwala ko dahil nakakapagod na iguilt-trap ang sarili. Nakakapagod na gumawa ng excuse sa sarili pagkatapos ko labasan.
Blake and I did not have sex again. Isang beses lang yun at medyo awkward nga siya dahil siya ang nakakuha ng virginity ko. I'm not sexually attracted to Blake in any way. But sometimes I can remember how his penis is twitching inside me.
Sex becomes a pleasure.
Nagsasarili ako, nanunuod ng porn or hentai or whatever I can find. I read hot novels. Minsan din pinagmamasdan ko ang hubad kong katawan sa salamin hanggang sa tuluyan akong mahalina sa sarili.
I'm still a normal person though. I'm still waking up early to do the household chores and go to school. I still studied hard for college. I still stayed up late just to study and finish my activities. But when my body or mind demand, when the light is out, nag-fifinger ako habang nasa isip ko si Sir Nathan.
Katatapos lang ng Midterms namin. Nakakapagod talaga last week. I think I deserve to treat myself. So I'm going to do it tonight.
May nakita akong sex website. It's called sex delivery.
If I want to have sex with someone, I just need to get his phone number or social media account. The website can sent the invitation to them.
Hindi naman papayag si Sir Nathan kung alam niyang sa akin siya makikipagsex. So I decided to use a name that doesn't exist. I used the name " Hissy ". And the lie that I come up with for reason of sex, is writing a thesis. I want to write a book about the connection between human psychology and sex.
I was so nervous when I submitted the invitation but Mia is right. Nakatanggap ako ng notification na tinanggap na ni Sir Nathan ang invitation.
The date scheduled is now. I wore a flowy cotton dress. No underwears. Habang iniisip pa lang ang mangyayari ay basang-basa na ang pagkababae ko.
I want to feel him so bad. It's hard to distinguish my attraction towards him. Hindi ako sigurado kung may gusto ba talaga ako sa kanya o kalibugan lang lahat ng 'to.
A van picked me up at the negotiated place. The same thing will happen to Sir Nathan. We are instructed to remain blindfolded so that the place will remain unknown. Pero pagkarating namin sa sex place, si Sir Nathan nalang ang magtatakip ng mata.
I requested him not to see me. I made the payment so I have the freedom to remove my blindfold or not.
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When I took off my blindfold, I'm inside the room. Bumungad sa akin ang sulat na nasa kama.
" We are making your sex partner ready. Have fun while waiting . "
I turned the TV on. Mainit ang eksena at dahil malibog ako, hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili. I massaged my boobs and moaned together with the girl in the video.
Pinigilan ko ang sariling magfinger. I can't touch myself now that he's going to fuck me. Siya dapat ang magpapaligaya sa akin ngayong gabi.
When he knocked, I instantly opened the door, with legs still shaking from excitement.
He is wearing a white top, black pants and blindfolded. May dala pa siyang aklat kaya sa tantya ko ay dumeretso sya dito after school.
He did not say anything when I reached for his hand and led him to the bed. I put his book just above the table.The movie is still on. He can hear the woman's moan and I'm feeling hotter now that he's here.
