listen

chapter 1

Erin
I awoke with a jolt sweat covering me. Tears rolling down my face. Why am I like this? Why can't I just get over it all?
Nightmares. They aren't real maybe to you but to me it's my past. My digital clock that my aunt got me as soon as I moved into this room reads 4:50 why dose it feel later? Why dose it feel like he's going to walk in through that door and make my life a living hell again.
With a sigh I get up my feet touch the cold wooden floor of my bedroom. I know for a fact that if I try and sleep i will see him again. Time to get up I say quietly in my mind a whisper of a thought. Thoughts what a funny thing to have you can't run from them.

After what seems like over an hour which was only 30 minutes I step out of the safety of my bathroom and get ready for today. First day at a new school I'm not exited at all. Not in the slightest. As I get dressed wearing a pair of ripped blue jeans that's a little baggy on my legs a tank top and a flannel with my holy black and white chucks I go down to great my aunt.
My aunt lily is a Saint in my eyes she would be the closest thing to a mother that I have gotten. She didn't know what happened back home in Ireland. She did know that I didn't speak to anyone and I would flinch away from any sudden moments that anyone made. She was my mother's sister I'm certain she was smart enough to piece the puzzle together.

As I walk down the stairs I smell a heavenly smell pancakes. I adore her pancakes like there a gift from God himself. I hear her singing away to the song on the radio and it puts a skip in my step and a smile on my face.

"Erin breakfast is ready and there's a steaming cup of coffee waiting for you" she basically sings to me as I come to the last step on the stairs. Since I've been here I have never felt so free she makes me feel like a butterfly free and beautiful I can't help but love her.

I walk in with a wave so she knows that I'm here she asks me if I nervous. Am I? With a shake of my head and a smile on my face I dig in to heaven what we call pancakes.

An hour later and I'm walking the 20 minute distance to school I love the outdoors it calms me I have my earphones in with my favourite song playing so loud it drowns out the thoughts. Artic monkeys knee high plays as I look around the place I was here to enroll a few weeks ago with my aunt when it was her day off. She owns her own book shop so she closed for that day and came with me. To do the talking.

I finally get to the gate. Here goes nothing. I know sign language but I always keep at least four note pads in my bag for just walking around incase someone talks to me.
Which by the way never happens but I don't mind it I like it like that.

I walk to reception and a woman in her early thirties stands there with a twinkle in her eye as if she has been waiting for me.

Well this is new.
As I'm about to take out my note pad and pen to speak her hands start moving. ' hello my name is Ana you must be Erin' the look on my face must have gave it away that I'm in absolute shock.
'Hey indeed I am I'm looking for my timetable' she hands me that and my locker combination which I'm thankful for. ' we have given you a tour guide for your first day she doesn't know ASL but she talks a lot so I hope you have a note book or I could give you one' she signs and I offer her a smile what a kind woman. As I thank her a girl no taller than 5 foot 6 bounces in and I give her a smile and a wave.
"This is Rebecca she will show you around and take you to your class I have written you a slip for being late" Ana says with a nod from me and a 'thankyou' Rebecca starts talking and I've never been so glad.
" let me see your time table" as I gave it to her she basically cries about how my first two lessons is in her class.
I think I just made a friend.
As she speaks and I well write we realised we're similar but opposites at the same time. We like the same music,food and movies but she has two dogs and I'm allergic to them.
Which we laughed at.

Walking into first period the subject that I love the most.
English.
As I walk to the teachers desk who I know now as Mr fletcher, he's a grumpy man with little to no hair and a growl to his voice.
This will be fun.
"Welcome my name is Mr fletcher and this is English would you like to introduce yourself to the class" he says as if he didn't know I was mute.
I don't want to embarrass him but I do want to introduce myself so to get everyone's attention I grab a white board marker and start to write.
Hello my name is Erin winters I moved here recently from dublin Ireland I'm 17 years old.

And boom
That's when I listen.

An..
This is my first proper book so I hope you enjoyed the first chapter I will update when I can
But I do hope you enjoy it
Xoxo