Changing Patterns

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"I am too." Derek admitted. "I don't want to lose you..." he spoke, "I can't, not know."

Stiles caught a sob in his throat chocking on his words. "No... no. Derek, please! You can't do this. Not know..." he begged desperately. He couldn't hear these words with a plan forming in his mind. Not with the truth barreled in front of him. Maybe in the morning, no, he would, Derek would know in the morning, he would hear it then. But right know it couldn't happen, and not from him.

"Why not. Why can't I, when your here. I won't lose you, I won't give you up-"

"Derek!" Stiles cried the alphas name, Derek ignoring Stiles's plea as he continued only a bit louder.

"I won't not fight for you! I won't keep from you! I'm not- stiles! I'm not losing you. Not know. I won't." Stiles raised his chest best he could to bring his head to Derek's shoulder, sobbing and wrapping his arms around Derek's back as the alphas one hand catches the floor.

The human changed his position, reaching Derek's lips and pressing his to the alphas receiving immediate return and passion as Stiles's tears spilled pasts his cheek bones toward his ears. Derek lowered his half stationed knees to the ground allowing Stiles to push up and forward against Derek's chest till he was in his lap. Stiles's tongue pressed to Derek's own, the alphas hands holding the younger's waist tight, pelvis to his own. Derek growled as his human pressed their kiss further than making their foreheads meet again.

"Derek... please," he cried for an answer. "I just can't, I cannot, hear it know..." the alpha nodded against Stiles's head, the two ignoring their lips connected in dust brushes and saliva strings.

Derek completely wrapped his arms around Stiles's back, holding him tight as the human continued to let tears go and his mind range. Derek pressed his unkissing lips to Stiles's as a request, quickly met with a kiss and arms finding their way back around his alphas neck and gripping fingers into his hair. The alpha hummed into stiles as their moment got deeper and deeper till the alpha was pulling dented metal bed frames back into place for the mattress to lay flat. Till Derek was lowering Stiles back on the bed. Himself positioned between the humans legs and speedily helping him remove his shirt.

"I'm worried..." stiles whispered as Derek's lips caught his cheek at the corner of his lips. The alpha slowed rubbing his thumbs into Stiles's waist and waiting for a continue signal.

"Stiles?.." Derek whispered softly as the younger wrapped one leg around the back of Derek's own then agin Stiles's other leg hooked onto his first.

"For you, and Scott, and Allison and the pack." Tears spilt quietly, voice cracking over his next words. "Of you guys dying, losing you all, of me dying. I'm scared I don't know what to do and how I'm the cause of all this just makes it-...so much worse..." His voice stayed low as he spoke.

Stiles's hand pushed the alphas waist forward, arching his back and belly up into Derek giving enough of a signal for him to go on. Taring off his own shirt with ease and kissing lightly, separating his words with kisses for emphasize and show.

"You've done. nothing. wrong. We'll be alright, baby." Stiles's eyes fluttered shut with a small smile growing onto his lips, delicately Derek placed a kiss to Stiles's lips as the human softly accepted beneath him. "I'm terrified..." he whispered back, lips still touching his new mates own. If they did this the pack would know, they'd sense a new status between stiles and them. Between stiles and Derek as well.