🎀 Project Sekai Oneshots 🎀

(Mizuena) 🎀🎨 ~ just be yourself pt.1

(Mizuki POV) ~~

.......

everything has been fine, right?
i watch my shows, i eat my snacks,
i go shopping for super cute clothes every once in a while!
i meet with the others on nightcord.
me and enanan bicker,
kanade shares her song demos,
mafuyu mostly stays quiet, but shares her opinions more.

..heh. im glad she's becoming more comfortable. our group is a place for everyone to feel happy.

thats what it was.

......

mafuyu's mom took everything away. her synthesizer, her computer, her phone, all of it.
....
its not the same anymore.

ever since nightcord stopped meeting, everything is coming back to me. my thoughts, my insecurities, my worries. nightcord was my distraction, they're my happy place. i dont want it to disappear..! i still haven't told them the truth yet...

all of this happening while I still can't even take care of my own problems. pathetic, right?
i thought i'd be over it by now. sometimes i still struggle to look in the mirror and say "i love myself". i dont look in the mirror and see mizuki akiyama.
i only see a faker. someone who dresses in cute clothes and such to try and convince themself that theyre doing alright. that theyre comfortable with their identity.

if im not a boy or a girl...what am i?
....
ena is coming over
i dont know what to do

im starting to overthink again.

what if the group falls apart?
what if i lose the people who make me feel sane?
what if they find out?
what if-

knock knock

what the-

"Mizuki..? Are you awake? There's someone at the door for you." a kind mature voice says.

oh. its just my mom.

.......

WAIT.

"Someone at the door..?" I ask quietly

I get off of my bed and desperately try to fix my clothing. all im wearing is a loose-fitted pink t-shirt and white/purple plaid pajama pants.

i scramble through my closet and quickly throw on a white shirt with frilly sleeves and pink denim shorts..
its not my usual, but it'll do.

"Mizuki..?? Are you going to answer the door? I think its your frien-" I cut her off

"Y-yeah- uhm..aha- give me a second!"

i finish changing and quickly open my bedroom door, rushing past my mother to the front door. i take a few deep breaths and open...

.....

"Hey Enanaaaaaaaaan!!" i say enthusiastically, or atleast I tried to.

ena was wearing a plain black t-shirt and a pink skirt with frills, and some white converse.

"Oh wowww!" i chimed "Arent you dressed up today?"

"Shut it, Mizuki. This is just...i just..wanted to look decent..? B-but thats not the point. What's going on with you recently?" Ena said.

me..?

"Aha, what do you mean? Im doing fine! You worry too much, E-na-naaan!" I said, dragging the last a's.