ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑡𝑠

toxic

tao x fem!reader, slight! ben x reader.

warning: this may be triggering to some, so keep in mind while reading. if you feel uncomfortable, feel free to skip off, or read other oneshots here. 

ben slander bc he is annoying in season 2, he is in the first season but like even more now. so felt like i should slander him more. 

Your POV

I really regret not turning down Ben last year. I felt like i would be more liked if i did go out with him. and while yes, i did become, popular, It wasn't worth it now. I missed my old friends. "Seriously, why do you keep ignoring me? Ben snapped. 

I couldn't. I was so annoyed because of our fight. but also Ben in general. Especially with how controlling he became. well, i feel like it's his nature. "I'll stop ignoring you when you stop being such a dick, I snapped, walking over to class.

My so-called friends were calling over for me. But, I was angry. I hated being popular. I see Elle, Darcy, and Tara. "Hey, I smile softly. Elle seemed happy, relieved, but nonetheless, happy. "(Y/N), She said."We haven't spoken since..."

 "I'm so sorry, I really would have, I don't like being popular very much, I admit, sitting down beside her. "You doing okay? Tara said, concern in her voice. "You seem less of yourself." I wouldn't deny i changed. i felt like more of myself when i was with my real friends. 

"I know, I just... maybe being with you guys would help, I said, more cheerful. Elle chuckles, nodding. I'm surprised, how easily forgiving my friends were. I doubt Tao or Charlie would. I should talk later. 

Charlie and Nick were really happy together. So i could when they were together. Ben spammed me, like usual. He doesn't even care about me. I knew he was secretly with Becky. yet each time i even brought up breaking up, he kept refusing. I mean, you prefer being with Becky, so break up already. 

Later, I got myself a chance. By luck, really. When i see Charlie with Nick, and Tao, Isaac was by their side. But seeing Tao, my heart fluttered. I sigh, holding my breath, before walking over. Charlie seemed surprised.

"(Y/n)? Charlie said, surprised. "Look, I need to apologize, for everything, I speak up, nervously. "For abandoning you like we haven't been friends forever." "It's okay, Charlie said. "Yeah, aren't you... Nick begins.

"Mhm, I just need help breaking up with him, i'm working on it, I chuckle. Tao stood up, "I'm sorry, (y/n), Nick said.  "No worries, I just... I begin, Ben calls for me. Tao frowns. "Don't go with him."

I look over, i nod, ignoring Ben. His own fault, really. I will say, I'm not perfect. I didn't be the best girlfriend i could be. Still, he was so controlling, so, eager on isolating me from my friends. I didn't notice, until a few months in. 

"You can't keep ignoring me forever! Ben scoffs, coming over, grabbing my wrist. I wince in pain, his grip was strong, I would for sure have bruises later. I spin around. "No, Ben, I said, sternly. "Go with Becky. I know you love her."

His eyes show surprise or shock. Like, he didn't expect me to know.  "Piss off, She doesn't like being around you, Tao commented.  "Oh yeah? so you read her mind? Ben said. I step in."We're over, Ben."

He walks off, but i know, he isn't done. Ben never is. I just won't know when. He likes control, i feel bad in the sense he lives miserably, but i mean, he made his own choices. Tao pulls me aside, Charlie and Nick smirking.

"(Y/n), I hated seeing you miserble wijh him, I... really like you, He confesses. I smile."i like you too. I never really liked Ben. I just thought you would never notice me. so, i agreed."  he pressed his lips on mine, i kiss him back.

"how about we go slow? i mean, i just dumped ben."

this was how you were supposed to be loved. now i knew how romantic love feels like.