Thingolwenkosazane

chapter 21

Thingo's POV

Beep.....beep.....beep ....

My eyes feel so heavy my throat feels blocked or something ,i flutter my eyes a bit scouting for vision

Light is just too much I squint them ,I look tat my surroundings and I'm at the hospital the beeping machines and the smell of medicine welcomed me first
I look at my bed side and there's someone sniffing and praying

Me:"ma

That just sounds so hoarse ,a smile dances on her lips as she sees me ,the events come flooding one by one

Me:"I need water "

She pours me a some water and helps me drink up

Ma :"awww my baby I'm so happy you are alive "

Ma:"are you okay ?"

Me:"I don't know honestly ma "

Ma:"ntsika has been in this hospital since you got admitted ,"

Me:"ohhhh

Ma:"what's wrong ?what exactly happened sweetheart --

She gets interrupted by the sound of the door opening and the doctor enters with a clipboard

Doc:"ohh she's finally awake "

Me:"how long has it been ?"

Doc:"only two days "

Me:"anything wrong "

Doc:"well your bp is just too high and that affects your nerve cells a lot when some cells in your body gets twitched or affected it causes some numerous complications and impacts to other cells "

Me:"am I gonna be okay?"

Doc:"well you need to exercise more ,drink lots of water and start your pills ohh and stop stressing "

Ma:"I will make sure she does all of the above "

Me:"where's Baba?"

Ma:"he went home to change "

Me:"mom can I please get some space to think"

She reluctantly thinks about it and finally stands up giving me a peck on my cheeks and walks out

Ntsika slept with Azande ! I don't think so I just need the truth
Then it hits me ......
Ntsika knows about my cancer now ,the tears start flowing down my cheeks why does everything I touch turn to dust

I drift off thinking how am I going to explain or tell ntsika that I'm dying in just a year
I get a fright whe I feel a touch on my hand I look at his eyes they are full of regret and sadness

We look at each other the mood is just too tense

Ntsika:"baby...."

Me:"don't "

Ntsika:"....

Me:"I....I don't think we can do this anymore I'm sorry "

Ntsika:"what???why you can't do that thingo"

I face the other way and just let the ears fall down on my cheeks ,lesson learnt thingo this is it boys are just a distraction in your life now

He walks out of the room I say that cause I hear his footsteps fading I just let it hurts and I release a loud so just forgetting I'm at the hospital

Soon I feel arms hold me tight and just rocking me up and down why??? Why!!! Me

Kamva:"ohhh sorry baby sis it's gonna be okay I'm here for you "